Bah humbug

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Registered: 06-06-2003
Bah humbug
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Fri, 12-26-2003 - 10:18pm
Edited: Possible triggers. Sorry, didn't see the notice at the top of the index page.

I feel so low right now....I've been trying to get into the holidays for the past few weeks, and almost managed, but so far Christmas has sucked. My fiancee is a resident (radiology) and is on nights all week, so we've barely seen each other. We did our Christmas thing tonight, and as usual I couldn't think of anything to give him that he would really like or get excited about. I tried getting him Asian mangoes (he's from the Philippines and says the western kind aren't the same) but they were so green that he didn't even know what they were supposed to be! I had wanted to make him a special breakfast when he came home from work on Christmas Eve morning, but he came home early and I was still in bed, and then he said he wasn't hungry. As usual, he gave me a gift I absolutely loved, while mine to him were dull and just not "it". To make matters worse, he was running late for work and could tell that I was upset, so now I not only gave him gifts he didn't like, but now he's sad because I was sad!

Christmas Eve night and Christmas Day were spent with my mother, her boyfriend and his family. I've never met any of his family, and felt very lonely and out of place. I've got my own family get togethers this weekend, but I really just want this whole Christmas thing to be over with! I really wanted to have a good holiday...I baked, decorated the tree, got music and all that, but now that it's here I'm just really sad and miserable! I've been sitting here crying and drinking wine since he left, and I still have to wrap presents for this weekend and pack my clothes and everything....I really just want to go to sleep and wait for it to go away. I tried to call a couple friends, but they've all gone off to their parents' homes for the weekend.

I feel so crappy right now. I just want to go to sleep and have someone wake me up after New Year's.....


Edited 12/26/2003 10:26:49 PM ET by lily_rose_fae

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: lily_rose_fae
Sat, 12-27-2003 - 1:53pm

HI Lily! Welcome to the board!


I know we are all guilty of setting ourself up for disappointment and not just at the Holidays. I know I plan and plan to make my hubby or a friend happy and then it doesnt go the way I envision it and I feel awful.


Im sure your boyfriend appreciated the effort you put into the gifts ( like the mangos) and perhaps down the road you will laugh about them.


I have learned over the years with my dh that the best way to really please him in not with lots of stuff but rather sometime more precious like time.. Perhaps you can plan a special evening to be with your bf when he is off nights and that may make him smile more then anything.


Post here as much as you like hun, Im sure some of the other ladies here will have more great advice and ideas for you!


*hugs