No Thing as Happiness for Me Trigger

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Registered: 03-25-2003
No Thing as Happiness for Me Trigger
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Mon, 01-05-2004 - 8:43pm
Happiness does not exist in my life. Never has and Never will. Yeah, I have heard you have to be positive, Think positive. I have believe me. Just when I think maybe just maybe it might work this time I get slapped in the face and I see the truth. That I never will be happy on any level in my life.

I truly believe that I am destin not to be Happy or have any kind of Happiness in my life.

Why should I when I am a Loser and Failure.

I am Sad and Lonely, Depressed and Lost.

Thank -you for listening to me.

Take care of yourselves.

Hugs,

Cathy

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Mon, 01-05-2004 - 9:27pm
(((Cathy)))

Please don't say such things! They are most definately not true. You have to fight back all those negative thoughts, because they will keep bringing you down.

Please take care

Pamela

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Registered: 12-31-2003
Mon, 01-05-2004 - 9:29pm


I can't offer much advice right now, but i can relate to how you are feeling! I too feel lonely, depressed and very lost, kinda feel like I'm wrong or something and everything seems very overwhelming! I just posted a little while ago and I even worry that people on here will think my posts sound strange! It still helps though and I know others can relate to us. You are NOT alone, I promise you!!! I too have the 'failure' issue and feeling like I will never get over this or manage it, so I know what you mean! I hate the rollercoaster too and the anxiety! We have to just keep believing that we will get better though. It's hard though! Take care.

Yvonne

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 01-06-2004 - 10:55am



Cathy, gosh were should I begin......

How about this you are not a loser no one is a loser that word is so non existant and does not apply to anyone here what so ever. you are also my dear not a failure I am not going to say to stop thinking that because I can not make you stop that you need to learn how to change those thoughts to catch them before they become imprinted into your being to change them it is hard trust me I know that I am trying to do the same thing myself.

You talked about trying to be happy but you get slapped in the face you see the truth what do you mean by seeing the truth does something happen does someone say something? Hun we all deserve to be happy and we all will be happy it just takes time, like you I believe so strongly that I dont deserve to be happy and I am sure that you think that you deserve all the bad things that happen to you in the life hun that is not the case none of us deserve the bad stuff.

sweetie I wish that there was something that I could say or do to make you feel better I wish I had a magic wand and wave it over your head and all the bad feelings would go away for you and you could smile again and laugh but unfortunatly I never got my wand all I can do is give you the words that have written and hope that they will help you in some way.

Erin

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Registered: 01-06-2004
Tue, 01-06-2004 - 11:24am
I don't know much about you but what I do know is that when you are where you are ( depressed that is) you see everything black. I think all of us have been there, may be in different ways, but I really think most of us have thought at one point or another that happiness was not meant for us. This is what I think personally: I think some people are born with a predisposition to be more 'happy go lucky', and some people are born to be less so. I have never been a happy go lucky kind of girl. That's just not me. I am pensive, prone to worry, tending to see the negative in all things first...BUT I also do know that medication does help once you find the right one. From your email, I don't know if you are taking something, but if you are not, may be you should consider talking to your doctor (and if he is not very responsive to your problem, as some doctors are, don't take it personally; see another one!).

There can be light at the end of the tunnel. More than likely, the problem is some chemical level that's off and need correction. There is no conspiracy out there saying you won't be getting a piece of blue sky. really.

hope this helps.

Christine