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| Wed, 01-07-2004 - 7:13pm |
I'm delurking 'cause I have a question...
My meds have been switched around quite a bit. Now I am on 300mg Welbutrin XL, 15mg Abilify at night, 50-100mg Seroquel at night. I've been cutting on and off for months now. The meds seem to be slowing down the ultra ultra rapid swings and the moods aren't quite as bad, but they are still there.
I'm having trouble with emotional deadness (not caring) and also a kind of congnitive slowing and inability to focus. I think its the antipsychotics. In fact I'm pretty sure of it. In order to counteract that I've using the last of the Concerta I have (which I was supposed to quit). Now the pdoc put me on Abilify so I could lower the Seroquel (made me soooooo sleepy and hungry), but I'm still experiencing these deadening side effects.
Its important that my brain work properly, I am a web developer and I fear for my job when I'm so unfocused. Heck, I'm afaid to even drive.
The pdoc doubled the Welbutrin to try and stimulate, but it just doesn't seem to work.
I mean even in addition to the Concerta, I have to have about three cups of coffee just to be able to code properly...I just can't string thoughts together.
I'm afraid to tell the pdoc about the Concerta, 'cause, well I'm just afraid....
The meds are kinda working but what am I supposed to do? I'm afraid I must be addicted to the Concerta...
I don't know....I know I should be kinda of upset, but except for the cutting, the incessant NEED to cut with shiny new razors...sorry wondering again, well I just don't care.
I guess.....Help?!?
Hugs,
Rowan

(((((((Karen/Rowan)))))))), I'm glad to see a post from you, but I am really concerned.
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