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| Thu, 01-08-2004 - 6:31pm |
everyone in the office is fulltime -except me - because my "job isnt important enough."
so my boss comes up to me a few days ago and says "so i hear you're still looking for other jobs." well that's been true for months, but i hadn't told her & no one else knew - except one person who i asked about her former job (she left for a better position). she's friends w/a coworker of mine & "ta da" - that's how i figured that out.
but now my boss is constantly talking about "when you leave" & my coworkers are telling me about all these new openings everywhere. (i mean, that's nice & helpful - resourceful even - but really odd.) for the longest time they were so excited to have me helping out & showing ppl how to do different things. now it's a complete 180 turn in attitude - like they're trying to MAKE me leave. (which was going to happen anyway.)
so i started a new class, looking for a new job, trying to find a place to live before the end of this month & i canNOT stay here any longer. it was great before the woman & her "friends" moved in upstairs from me (she gets beat daily & as much as i've tried to help out, the apt. manager, police & even shelters wont do anything). so now i've gotta find a place more expensive, with all my current bills/etc. and somehow maintain my sanity.
it may sound simple, but we all know there are tons of "little things" that simply add up. and this has been a year's worth - work and where i live.
just too much & no one's being helpful, it seems. i tried asking a couple friends for help but they decided it was "too much" for them. i'm at the point of writing them off. i'm so tired of being the responsible one. i live in hard times - barely able to eat - let alone pay all my bills on time - yet i only get people to come around when THEY need something.
i dont know. i'm tired of being the "odd one out" at work. i dont get paid what i should earn because they dont think i really do much (even tho, i'm the background person who makes the wheels turn while they stand up front & get all the credit). sure it looks easy when you're handed something all put together & complete. i've tried talking to my boss & even the coworkers, but they dont listen. i'm "still young" to them (they're all in their 50s) and dont know what i'm talking about.
in a way i cant wait until i find a better job - i'd love to simply leave them high & dry w/not a clue as to what i really did. see how "invaluable" i am then!

AWWWWWWWWWWW (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((SSN01))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I wish I could offer more than hugs to help you feel better.
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Sending you a ton of cyber hugs.....................
It can be so tough when you are in a job that you really dont want to be in at place that you really dont like and working with people that think you dont do enough work to get the credit that you deserve, I was in that place and decided that enough was enough and left but for me it is a bad pattern which I am trying to stop(bipolar, cant stay at a job for too long).
I think that you should take those co-workers up on the offers for other places to work it cant hurt to call the places see what they have to offer you and in the end you may find the job that is perfect for you and you may love it...
I understand about the living situation, I live ina 4 bedroom house with my sister neice and a roommate luis now my sister and luis are ummm friends with benefits, I guess you could say and well they have run of the house while I hide in my bedroom and remain ignored by all I want to move out but Connecticut is just so expensive to live in a one bedroom appartment can run you up to 2k a month and that does not include utilities so you can pay about 2500 a month total, so I too am I guess stuck where I am now.
I hope that you start to feel better soon and that you find a better job and a better place to live.