Am I a "victim"?
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| Thu, 01-08-2004 - 8:01pm |
I'm new to this board, but I thought I would post a message. I've been dealing with depression for a while, and just found out that my sister, who also deals with depression just went on medication and its doing good things for her. I don't have any health insurance, so going to a doctor and getting medication is out. Its something that I'm trying to deal with, but its so hard. I thought I had found a person I could be totally honest with, and let me him know what I was feeling behind the fake smiles and laughs. Turns out, he took everything that I've been saying, everything that I've been sharing with him, and he's come up with the idea that I turn myself into a victim or a martyr. And I think he's probably right. So, now I ask, how do I change? How do I stop being the victim in all situations? How do I get a bright outlook on life, and really mean it, besides just telling people what they want to hear? I think for now, with him, I need to tell him what he wants to hear, becuase a summer job is at stake...but I'm now sad that the only person I felt I could be honest with, I can no longer be honest with him.
Thanks.
