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Upset,Worried Confused Triggs, Long
| Sat, 01-10-2004 - 4:09pm |
I put the Let's Calm Down Icon more for myself then for those of you reading this post.I am the kind of person that if I have an appointment or a commitment that I will keep it and that kinda is a hard thing when you are thinking of ending your life. I saw Kara yesterday and told her how I was feeling and I asked her if she could ask Weiss about increasing my meds.She said she would when she saw him and she would call me. I have been trying to not call my parent's as often and not going running out there all the time but I have been going through seperation anxiety and withdrawal I guess which has contributed to my helpless feelings. I called Dan yesterday who is the car salesman that helped me get my car 4 years ago. I was able to afford the car when I bought it but now that I have been disabled for 2 years it is really eating into my budget. Even though I only have a year left on my car I am trying to see about trading it in. Basically I just want reliable transportation. I know I need front brakes on the car and yesterday i asked my parent's in writing if I could pay them $25 a month until the front brakes would be paid off. If they would pay for me to get the brakes fixed. I did tell my dad about talking to Dan because we have dealt with Dan for years and dad says wait on the brakes until I talk to Dan about the car because there is nopoint in putting $150.00 in the car if I am going to get rid of it. He said first I go see Dan alone and then if needed he will go with me. I seriously think I am starting to crack up agaion. Weiss did increase my Risperdal to 3 mg a day now. Well, I needed to vent and I think I did that I am not sure as I am too tired to think straight. Love And Hugs Andrea

I am sorrytohear about the car thing I know how much it sucks when you cant afford something that you really do need that is what happened to me with my car but my mom went behind my back and paid like 3 grand towrds my car that way I only had to make I think it was three more payments on my car I just sent in my final payment and should get the title soon...so anyways maybe Dan could help you out the only thing is are you going to be trading it in for something less expencive? when you buy a car there is a certain value on the car and each year it depreciates and you may have baught it new for say 16 grand and now it may only be worth 9 grand depending on the shape and mileage on the car but hopefully this guy will be able to help you out with this problem.
I have a few questions if you dont mind me asking them and dont answer if you dont feel like it.
you say that you are on disability is it because of the depression? or is it something else?
How old are you? I know that you mention Irv and that he is much older than you and you mentioned that you are a child of the 80's so I want to put you maybe in the same age renage as myself I am 28 you may be younger who knows.
I know alot of these questions seem irelivant but for me to understand a person a little bit more I like to get insight into the person.
I am also so sad to hear that you are having those thoughts about suicide again is there anything else the doctors can do different meds maybe another form of therapy may help.
I know when I went on my mood stabilizers it helped me out alot with the suicidal thoughts maybe they may help you out a bit just a thought.
((((((((Andrea))))))))), I know you have been having disturbing thoughts again for a while.
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