Does this ever get better????
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| Sun, 01-11-2004 - 9:41am |
I am just sick of feeling the way I do!!!!! Oh yes, and please don't get me wrong my dh is doing everything he can to support me. Yes he hurt me deeply and caused all of this pain, but I believe people can and do make mistakes. He made a huge one and it was at my expense but he is also doing everything he can to make it better. Only problem is I am not getting better. I am so afraid that one of these days he is going to say "I have had enough!!!" I am afraid one of these days he is going to leave me and move on because I am too hard to be with. He swears that when he almost lost me he realized what was most important, but I am afraid that he is only saying empty words.
So does it ever get better?
Chelle -
"This too shall pass"and "No man is worth your tears, and the one that is will NEVER make you cry."
Mommy with enough love in her heart for her seven kidlets, dh, and then some :o)

All I can say hun, its YES it does get better.. I battled depression at many times during my life with the worst time being about 3 years ago.
*hugs
Take care
Pamela
Do you maybe have a minister or priest you could talk to?
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CL-ladybug987
Not only that but my fil is now learning to be a priest (or whatever you would say - don't really know what the right words are but he is studying to be a priest and will be ordained in a few years), and the truth of the matter is I have lost faith in the church. I believe in God and all that, but to me the church is just something I do not want to partake in any longer. I have a hard time understanding how my father in law after being married to mil for 20 some years with four children could annul his marriage and become a priest. Just doesn't seem right to me.
Of course that is just my belief and I do not want to start a religion war. All I can say is that is where I am at with my belief for right now. That may change in the future though :o)
Chelle -
"This too shall pass"and "No man is worth your tears, and the one that is will NEVER make you cry."
Mommy with enough love in her heart for her seven kidlets, dh, and then some :o)
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That's okay.
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CL-ladybug987
says that God can heal not only the wrongs that we have done, but also the wrongs done To Us. This made a great impression on me - that if I would give it to Him, he could help me recover from the pain and fear of things that others had done to me. I am still working on some of the issues, but it has changed my perspective and given me a better outlook on the fact that I will recover, that I am surviving and that the future holds better things, including a sense of peace. You don't have to be a church goer to have a good relationship with God, you only have to believe and have faith in him and his Love for you.
Best wishes, Martha