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| Sun, 01-11-2004 - 1:58pm |
this has been the most unproductive weekend yet. i have so much to get done, and no energy to do it. the dishes looming in the kitchen, the papers stacked to sort thru, the homework to get caught up on, the work i have to have by monday morning, the clothes that need to be hemmed/buttoned/repaired, the projects, unfinished, sitting around taunting me, the piles of "stuff" sitting around that need to be thrown away/sorted/stacked/given to people/etc.... it never ends.
and as usual, there's no one here. my s.o. - dunno where he is, off enjoying his wkend i hope, other friends - (what friends?), well they're busy being happy & only come around when they're miserable to fill my ears & shoulders with their burdens and of course i've "just gotta help" them out. nothing like sitting around in your own jail, no money, no way to get anywhere, nowhere to go! (let alone the lack of energy).
and they're all out there having a "good ol' time" and are just waiting to come around later on and tell me what i missed.
i have no friends, unless you call loneliness one. no one sticks around when it gets tough - and those that do (let's just say he doesnt know)...
Sue.

Have you mentioned this to your friends, that you feel they only come around when they are down? Have you asked them why they don't ask you to go along?
Pamela
they've all gone to "better" lives - so they tell me.
so i'm standing alone. i ought to be used to this. but i work where everyone is at least 25 yrs older than i am - so no common ground there.
dont do much else outside of work & classes & classes dont last long enough to justify knowing anything but what one's supposed to learn!
no time or money outside of that to go anywhere to "meet" new people.
so i've lost in the past 3 years 2 friends to death & the other 2 to "better lives".
no one listens anymore. i'm just a "convenience friend" apparently.
i guess it cant be too hard to walk thru life alone. i did myself for nearly 10 yrs - why not a few more...
Sue.