I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW I COULD SCREAM!!

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Registered: 05-12-2003
I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW I COULD SCREAM!!
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Thu, 01-15-2004 - 3:01pm
I am so so angry right now at Kara and even though I am this angry I will control myself in my post! As I have said in my last post my parent's are going to pay half my car payment for the amount of the term I owe left which is 23 months. I am very grateful and glad that they are helpng me out and that I will be able to keep my car but there is a part of me that feels like I am a burden to them even though they say I am not.I am so mad I am having trouble thinking straight. Anyway I could Kara this morning to safety contract with Kara because even though I don't have to worry about the car payments that I still feel horrible inside. She started yelling at me that like I am not the only one with problems which was not what I was saying at all and how she is going to search me tomorrow and if she finds one mark on me I am going straight in the hospital no ifs ands or buts about it. I am seriously thinking about not showing up tomorrow. Then I told her that I want another therapist and she says I will have to go on the waiting list and it could be 6 months before I get another therapist and that means I will either have to keep seeing her in the meantime or be on my own until another therapist comes up but I know I can't not be in therapy at this point and time in my life.I hung up on her and came here to the library in between the errands I am doing for my mom.Kara asked me to if I was due for my period and I said geez now you sound like my grandmother and she said well you get so irrational before you get your period. Whose being irritational. I mean the whole point of her being a therapist is to be there when I need her and not to jump down my throat. She says I am not going to bend her like I bent Margarita my old therpaist. I give up. I can't win and I am being a burden so why shouldn't I end my life. Just needed to vent as I really don't need any advice because I know what I need to do. Love and Hugs Andrea
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 01-15-2004 - 7:23pm

Andrea hun,


Not to take sides here, but I KNOW how much Kara means to you and I know that you know she is a good therapist and has really done wonders for you.. It could be she was having a bad moment or it could be she was trying something different. I know for me when a good friend got angry like that at me, it did hurt but it also triggered a change in me for the better.


Also as a side note.. Many many women ( me included) DO get very irratible and irrational around the time of their period.. I think even more so when you battle depression because that is just a double mixed of Hormones all out of whack hehe Bomb

*hugs