I thought I was winning....
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I thought I was winning....
| Fri, 01-16-2004 - 7:22pm |
It seemed like I was feeling better after starting the 50mgs of Zoloft about 6 weeks ago, but Ive been pretty depressed for the last week or two - especially today. So now im wondering if my feeling better was all in my head. It just seems like I will never be happy, and I look at all the happy people around me at work and wonder "why ME? what have I ever done to anybody to have such permanent things happen to me?!" I know depression doesnt have to be permanent, but it sure seems like it will and I do have a disease that cant be cured, but I dont want to go into that. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist to see how the Zoloft is working, so im guessing that she will want to increase my dose. Thats kind of scary because Im still not sleeping all the way through the night with the dosage that I have now. I think there must be some other emotional problem that I need to get to the root of, otherwise I dont think that any amount of medicine will help me in the long run. I will be having therapy at the end of the month, but I feel so weird about discussing the thing(s)that seem to trigger my depression. I still feel that it is mostly chemical because my mom has suffered from depression (and I suspect my sisters too - All of us have been treated for anxiety) also. On top of this, Im also dealing with anger now because this psycho who works on my floor was playing on my phone (she spoke the 1st time she called and im positive that its her voice). The 2nd day, she had someone else call me. This woman is 35- how pathetic is it to be playing on a 22 year old's phone (or to be playing on anyone's phone at all)?! So im frustrated because I cant confront her because she would probably hit me and im not losing my job over this. But it burns me up everytime I see her. I am a student and class just started back and im wondering how I will ever get through the semester. I have class in the morning, but I just want to stay in bed all day. Well I guess ive vented enough - Thanks for coming out, God Bless and Goodnight ~SHI

Hi babyfase,
I was visiting this board and happened to read your post.
IVHealth Ruth Ann
Community Leader/Ask the Health Librarian
Welcome to the board,
Hi there!
As a Zoloft user myself I can tell you that almost the same thing happened to me.. I think it was about 3 months after I started it not 6 weeks but still.
*hugs
This is just a thought, but maybe the things that are causing you to be depressed again are the things that are in your life right now the physco at work school ect.......
Maybe it all seems so big right now but once you are in school and doing the work it wont seem so bad, is there another way to get things straight with this woman at work?
maybe HUMAN RESOURCES OR SOMETHING?
I hope that you do feel better soon and that things start to look up for you
good luck with your pdoc just let him/her know whats going on and how you feel I am sure working together you both can come up with a solution.