i'm new here, but could use some advice
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i'm new here, but could use some advice
| Fri, 01-16-2004 - 9:45pm |
Hi there. I'm 23 years old (going to be 24 next month), married (for 1 1/2 months), and pregnant (due in September). I had a lot of problems with depression in HS and College. I wasn't diagnosed until November of 2001 and the big problem was when I had a breakdown in January of 2002 (I had 2 SERIOUS episodes of Self-Injury within 2 days). I was sent home from college, hospitalized, put on meds, and then went into just couseling and continued taking my meds. Things got better--I lot better. I went back to college, got a part-time job I loved, etc. And to make things even better, I got engaged. I was so happy. The people around me started to convince me that my depression was probably only due to the situations around me, and not a permanent thing. This was especially the case with my now-husband. He really and truly believes that depression can be controlled by a person without meds. I dunno I guess I started to believe that, too. Anyway, so I moved across the country to be closer to him (we were gonna live in Cali not NY after the wedding anyway) and because of my move I lost my health insurance. I had a 3 month supply of the Zoloft and Depakote-ER I was on. I planned on taking all 3 months but then I started thinking--my doc had told me that if we wanted to have a family or there was any chance of me getting pregnant my meds would have to change, especially the Depakote. I felt better, no mood swings, so I took myself off Depakote-ER and stayed on the Zoloft (without consulting her). Well, things haven't been awful...but lately they have been. Now I'm pregnant, and my mood swings and depression are so much worse. I'm scared to death and don't know what to do./ I feel I don't have many options. I still have Zoloft left and am considering starting it at 100mg (I was on 200 before) to see if it does anything for me. But my big problem is my husband. I can't seem to get him to understand that I really have no control over these emotions. They overwhelm me and before I realize it they're creating an argument between us. I know I'm not the only person who has ever had to deal with someone in their life who doesn't understand the depression they struggle with. How can I get him to understand before our marraige is destroyed? I am also so worried about being the worst mother in the world to this baby.

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Welcome hun!
You will be a Great mother to your baby because you Care! That is the most important thing... babies and Kids dont care if their Moms are perfect they just want to be loved!
Now that said, the first thing to do is take care of you!
*hugs