Angry at God (definite triggers)
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Angry at God (definite triggers)
| Mon, 01-19-2004 - 8:45pm |
My son needs surgery tomorrow for kidney stones. This is a man who is pure love and goodness, but his life has been one long hell. When he was four months old he had to be hospitalized because a social worker hanging around threatening to take him away from me stressed us both out so much he quit nursing and lost too much weight. Then, when he was 28 months old, he was hit by a pickup truck. The resulting skull fracture injured his brain so badly, they had to remove a quarter of it, leaving him a helpless quadriplegic. Three days after his accident his little sister was born. She died a month later, the day before he regained consciousness, so he never met his only sibling. Since then, it's been one health problem after another for him, with a steady loss of what abilities he had left. Now he can't even talk, just a syllable or two here and there.
It just never stops. I think this is why I quit going to church or praying. How can I adore a God who won't protect innocent children? When is S/He going to quit using poor Frank for a punching bag?! I'm sorry if I offended anybody here, but that's the way I feel.
I hate being alone. I need to be hugged so badly, and there's only my stuffed dog. Samwise is a great dog, but he's a little lacking in the hugging-back department.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Oh Sweetie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I wish I could be there to give you all the hugs you need.
Rose
My brother was in a bad car accident in November that caused open and severe brain injury. He had surgery and was in a coma for two weeks. The doctors told us he was brain dead and then we had to make the decision to take him off life support. That was a hard and tragic time for my family. Our loss is still weighing heavy on us.
I was reading on the anxiety, panic and phobia message board about a women who just lost her 9 year old daughter to a car accident. There are alot of tragic things that happen. God doesn't cause these bad things to happen and God does love you and your son. He put you and your son together for a purpose. Maybe it is to share what you have here for someone to see how lucky they are. My prayers will be with you and your son. I feel bad he has to go through this and I know it has to be so hard on you to watch him go through it.
God Bless you always!!!!
Tina~
I can't tell you that I know what you are enduring. I don't have any idea what it is to watch your helpless child struggle for even basic life functions. None of us knows what or if there is meaning to all of this life. I hope and try to believe that there is. But regardless of if there is an afterlife, I know that we all have the opportunity to be angels to each other. You are your son's angel. He is so blessed to have you. Many people would have given up on a child with so many problems. I've heard of parents who are wealthy, with spouses and supportive families who have given up Down's syndrome children because they couldn't face the stress of such a challenge. You aren't someone who could throw your child away. You are his angel, the kind of angel that really matters.
I can't give you real hugs, but I want you to know how much I'm here for you. You deserve as much love and support as we have to give.
All My Love,
MariaC
I wish I could drive right to your door step and give you the biggest hug.
I don't believe in God for pretty much some of the same reasons. Except of course I have never had to live through what you have. Just keep on being the awesome person that you are.
I am thinking of you sweetie.
Pamela
Mary,
I agree with what all the ladies have said so far,
You are a wonderful strong woman
you dont have to have faith in God but try to have faith in something
I will keep you and your son in my thoughts
I hope that all turns out well for you and your son.
sending you a ton of hugs and good thoughts.
I wish I had words, or answers, or even Ideas but I dont.... Im sorry...
I do have Caring
and Support
and Love
and
HUGS
*hugs