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| Wed, 01-21-2004 - 2:43pm |
Ok I need to know if I am being paranoid or not. Lately I have had this feeling that all relationships I have in my life are on the rocks in some way or another. My friends my husband etc..
I do not know if I am feeling this way because all of a sudden I need more attention I need more contact from people or is it that people are really withdrawing from me? I can not have a normal conversation with my husband. The only communication we have is when he wants sex or wants to know what’s for dinner. Other then that I am lucky to get 2 sentences out of him. When I do talk to friends or husband I feel like I am annoying them and they have to respond because they feel there obligated to do so not that they want to. I feel as though I am a burden to everyone. I don’t know where I stand with anyone. I haven’t had this feeling for a long time just in the past few months. I feel I am losing touch and losing everyone. It hurts when your own husband doesn’t want to talk to you that he would rather sit in front of a computer then have contact with you. If I try to discuss my feelings with hubby it turns into a fight. I have not confronted friends I had a friend whom acted as if I was a thorn in her side so I stopped talking to her it was a month before she came looking for me asking me where I’ve been. I have yet to respond. If they were a true friend she wouldn’t have waited a month to contact me. I just don’t know what’s going on I am an easy going person I get along with most people and make efforts to stay in contact with them until they treat me like a rug. What is going on or I am just being super sensitive?
I do not know if I am feeling this way because all of a sudden I need more attention I need more contact from people or is it that people are really withdrawing from me? I can not have a normal conversation with my husband. The only communication we have is when he wants sex or wants to know what’s for dinner. Other then that I am lucky to get 2 sentences out of him. When I do talk to friends or husband I feel like I am annoying them and they have to respond because they feel there obligated to do so not that they want to. I feel as though I am a burden to everyone. I don’t know where I stand with anyone. I haven’t had this feeling for a long time just in the past few months. I feel I am losing touch and losing everyone. It hurts when your own husband doesn’t want to talk to you that he would rather sit in front of a computer then have contact with you. If I try to discuss my feelings with hubby it turns into a fight. I have not confronted friends I had a friend whom acted as if I was a thorn in her side so I stopped talking to her it was a month before she came looking for me asking me where I’ve been. I have yet to respond. If they were a true friend she wouldn’t have waited a month to contact me. I just don’t know what’s going on I am an easy going person I get along with most people and make efforts to stay in contact with them until they treat me like a rug. What is going on or I am just being super sensitive?
DG

Hi DG!
I understand alot of where you are coming from because my depression stems from Low self esteem so I often felt like I was bothering people too.
Since for you though,
*hugs
Thanks
DG
You are more then welcome to vent here hun! I didnt mean to imply that if you didnt have depression we couldnt help.. I am just trying to help you get to the root of your problem.
Sounds to me like there have been some big changes in your life recently if you just got done with a 7 year tour of the Army.
*hugs
Wecome (((((((((((((((((((((((((DG)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I know that for me, all the changes in my life in the past year, have made my depression much worse.