I feel it comming

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I feel it comming
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Fri, 01-23-2004 - 11:23pm
How do you stop it when you see the depression comming. I knew it would. It does every year at this time. I take my meds. Exercise. Im taking care of myself. Every year at this time I feel so blue and trapped by my life. I love my husband and kids. Sometimes I feel like I want more, different. Today I want to be free!

Shelly 


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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sat, 01-24-2004 - 1:40am

Hmmm...I wonder if since you expect it to come, you sort of let it in? Does that make any sense? Ask Tracarts about fighting the gremlins, hon!


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Sat, 01-24-2004 - 9:33am

Hi there!


I am having a similar problem, and Im begining to think that ontop of it all I have SAD and you may have it too hun.


Its Seasonal Affective Disorder or something like that LOL ( Trac will know *wink)


and it has to to do with not getting enough sunlight etc in the winter time.. I Know I get sooooo depressed in the winter, more so then any other

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Sat, 01-24-2004 - 1:29pm




((((((((((((((((((((((((Jellybean)))))))))))))))))))))


Yes there is a disorder out there SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and for most people this is the worst time of year.

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Sat, 01-24-2004 - 4:09pm
I am new here and I also suffer from depression, PTSD, anxiety disorder, amongst other thigns.....BUT, I wanted to say that i feel this way also. I love my DH and my son (who is 10.5 months) bt i sometimes feel so trapped! I thought I was alone though and it makes me feel better to know someone else has these feelings. If you dont mind me asking, how do you deal with it?

Sara

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Sat, 01-24-2004 - 10:04pm
I so understand your feelings, don't feel that you are alone. I have this strong urge to run away from my family, I want a new life, sometimes I feel like the blood is being slowly drained from my body. We are at war with depression, we are going to have to fight this war one battle at a time, there are days that I feel like I am going to go mad. I have to use coping skills that are good for me, some have been listed here by others on this board. I have come to accept I am in this war forever, I enjoy the good days and when the bad days come I talk to myself and I encourage myself and get as busy as I possible can. I have learned the problems of depression will come and go like the tide. So when you reach the end of your rope tie a knot in it and hang on!.
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Sat, 01-24-2004 - 10:34pm

Bama that is such a good analogy about the tides and I love tying a knot in the end of your rope

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Sun, 01-25-2004 - 10:41pm
bamagirl, I dont deal with it. I have always tried to ignore things that I dont like. I think this might be part of my problem. I have always followed the path that was "right". Pregnancy leads to marriage. Marriage leads to me never feeling independant. I have never been free, self supporting, one my own, nobody to answer to. I do the right thing! Maybe this isnt the right thing for me. But it's most surely the right thing for the kids. I cant wake up and be single and childless again. I love my family. Sometimes I feel like Ive lost ME. I live for everyone else. Where and how do I find me? No, I cant go to counseling. No time. No money. I was 21 when I had my son. 22 when I got married. My youngest will be in school full time next year. I live in an area where I dont have a babysitter whom I trust. My husband is really sweet. But he's never here. He works all night, sometimes I prefer it that way. When I feel this way I just want to be alone. Its a vicious circle. I grew up too fast.

Shelly 


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Fri, 01-30-2004 - 8:09pm
Oh jellybean, I so understand what you are saying. Just know this that you are not alone. I remember the line in a play that went something like this " We live lives of quite desperation". I think this is so true. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you and all of you that visit here that everyting is going to be okay. That is what my dad use to do for me when I was a child and only he could make me believe that.
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Fri, 01-30-2004 - 8:44pm

I understand where you're coming from!!

    CL for The

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Fri, 01-30-2004 - 11:16pm
Hey Deb! There is always MY HOUSEHouse if you are looking for something to clean!!

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