crying all day - need support

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Registered: 01-21-2004
crying all day - need support
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Tue, 01-27-2004 - 9:56pm
I am so sad. I have been crying all day long. Alone in my office, in my car and every time I talk to anyone I cry. My heart just hurts so bad. I am a disaster and I just hurt. This can't go on much more. I have to find a solution or I don't think I can make it. I feel like I get worse all the time. How can I get worse all the time when I keep trying?

I was crying when I got to therapy and crying when I left. I made it back to work but then had to tell my boss I wasn't going to make a deadline for tomorrow. She acted like she had been dying for me to say something and suggested I take time off. I think I will. Why can't I just be a good and happy and confident person. I feel like there isn't a place for me anywhere. I feel like I am just a mess and no one understands or really cares. Then I feel like I'm just a whiney baby. I have a lot to be thankful for and I am just constantly suffering instead. So I try to focus on the good things, but I still just cry. I wish I could find what I need. I need something. But I don't know what I need and I don't know what I want in any way or aspect.

Thank you

Piruli

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tue, 01-27-2004 - 10:20pm
((((piruli))))

Sweetie, aren't we a pair today??? lol

I just wanted to send you some cyber hugs, cause I want you to know that I care.

Take care

Pamela

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Registered: 07-14-2003
Tue, 01-27-2004 - 10:28pm
Hey boo boo...

I know that feeling of uncontrollable crying. Been there, still do that. I know what its like to have to leave work, because ur afraid ur going to burst into tears at any moment. Only thing I can tell you to do, is to pray to whom ever u believe in...write in a journal, or even if u can take a vacation even if its to the marriott for the weekend. Only you can control ur sobs. I used to sob and cry so bad, while driving that I would think of literally stopping in the middle of the freeway. Its seems crazy but when u feel like ur whirling around in the world aimlessly nothing matters. Just take care and believe in yourself. I hope everything turns out for the better sweetie.

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Registered: 02-05-2003
Tue, 01-27-2004 - 10:40pm
OH sweetie...

sounds like you're having a down day. Just know that it's gonna get better for you. We've all been there and done that. The important thing for you to do now is focus on the positives in life, and taking care of you. Sometimes the hardest thing to deal with depression is dealing with the reality of taking care of YOU, and putting YOU FIRST!! It's a hard concept, but you deserve it. You can do it for yourself. Maybe take a hot bath, with lots of bubbles. Reward yourself with a McDonald's coke and fries (that's what I love!), do something special for you. Even if it's just for a few minutes. Believe me. A little bit goes a long way! Take care sweetie, and if you need anything let us know!

Love ya babe, and take care

Trixie

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 01-27-2004 - 10:52pm

((((((((((((((((((((Piruli)))))))))))))))))))))))


Hi sweetie! Sounds like your boss was very understanding and thats wonderful.. If you can take a bit of time off, maybe you should.

*hugs             

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Wed, 01-28-2004 - 12:40am
Piruli,

I'm so sorry that you are in so much pain. I know what it's like to carry around excruciating pain for years and years. How long has this been going on? How long have you been in therapy? Did you start feeling depressed at any time imparticular?

I know that there's nothing we can do to make it better. Just know that there are others who understand the pain you are in. The most important thing you can do is to not be hard on yourself. Give yourself the time off to cry and take care of yourself. When I started to accept that I'm different than other people and need more space to myself, it relieved some of the pressure I was putting on myself by feeling ashamed of being depressed. You feel the way you feel. You can't be anyone but yourself. If you can accept that you need to treat yourself with extra special care, it might at least alleviate some of the shame you feel about the pain you are dealing with.

All My Best,

MariaC

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Registered: 05-15-2003
Wed, 01-28-2004 - 11:19am
{{{{{{{{{piruli}}}}}}}}}

I can't ay much different than the others here, but I can offer you my support and cyber-shoulder to cry on. I wish I could cry sometimes. I have been dealing with the onset and diagnosis of a chronic illness, and haven't really cried much but I know I need to.

Love and tons of hugs,

Nadine-wife of Tim(4 years) proud mother to Isabel Rose (19 months-born 6/13/02)

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Wed, 01-28-2004 - 8:28pm

(((((((Honey))))))), I am so glad you were able to get to a therapist.

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