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| Fri, 01-30-2004 - 2:39pm |
Hi everyone,
I'm not new to iVillage and I'm not new to depression, but I am new to this board. I'm 17 and I've been dealing with depression for 7 1/2 years. I've been through many pshciatrists, hospitals, medications and people who could supposedly help me but I'm still dealing with it on a day by day basis. Though some days are worse then others and some days are beyond worse then others and so on. Since I've moved away from my family and married the love of my life things have been better, but I know that I am ignoring it and keeping myself busy so I can forget it. It still haunts me in the shadows of everything I do, in the moments before sleep and whenever I sit still for too long. I really want to be completely rid of it, but I have tried everything and I don't know what else to do other then ignore it and hope it will go away if I pretend I'm okay. You know, mind over matter. Just being on this board is a step toward making me face it again and it is scary, but I feel like I have to talk to someone about it.
I'm not new to iVillage and I'm not new to depression, but I am new to this board. I'm 17 and I've been dealing with depression for 7 1/2 years. I've been through many pshciatrists, hospitals, medications and people who could supposedly help me but I'm still dealing with it on a day by day basis. Though some days are worse then others and some days are beyond worse then others and so on. Since I've moved away from my family and married the love of my life things have been better, but I know that I am ignoring it and keeping myself busy so I can forget it. It still haunts me in the shadows of everything I do, in the moments before sleep and whenever I sit still for too long. I really want to be completely rid of it, but I have tried everything and I don't know what else to do other then ignore it and hope it will go away if I pretend I'm okay. You know, mind over matter. Just being on this board is a step toward making me face it again and it is scary, but I feel like I have to talk to someone about it.

I am 25, and I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember.
Are you currently seeing a therapist and/or taking meds? I am just waiting to see a new pdoc, but I have been on meds for a long time. And most likely will be for a long time. I know that without my meds, even spilling water makes me bawl my head off.
I can relate to how you say you try to keep it out of your mind, but it pops up when you let your mind rest. Like before bed or something to that effect. I am like that too.
How is your relationship with your family?
I am looking forward to getting to know you more.
Take care
Pamela
My relationship with my husband, my siblings and my mom is great, I love them all very much. Its my dads I don't like. My step-dad is abusive though no one believes that except my husband and I and my biological father rarely spares a moment to see if I am alive and I give him the same consideration.
As of now my husband and I are living with his grandparents and aunt. I don't really get along with them very well but none of them get along with each other anyways so I don't feel too bad about it.
Welcome, ((((((((Thorn))))))))!
Glad you found the board. Lots of gals post here,and everyone is TERRIFIC!!! I'm sure you're dealing with a lot of issues, and just know that we'll be here for you through thick and thin. The people here are good like that. Hope that you're doing well now, and if not, feel free to post! Thinking of you, and hope you like the gang!
Trixie
I did talk to my doctor about the effects of my medication but he wanted me to continue on them and then I ended up moving on rather short notice and I haven't gotten to a doctor since. My husband and I don't have any health insurance and can't afford doctor's visits or medication since he has been laid off and I haven't been able to find a job.