I am a yo-yo?? Triggers?

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I am a yo-yo?? Triggers?
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Sat, 01-31-2004 - 9:10am
Hey ladies.....sorry I have not been around too much. This brief post will explain some of it.

I am on my ninth med. I have tried them all.. except an oral version of this patch I am on. On the pill form, you have to eat a repugnant diet of no cheese, or aged products...and IF you eat the wrong thing you could stroke out and die. Is it any wonder I won't take it. Well the patch version gives you no such problems...of course, it is not helping me either. I am having an incredibly partial response....not much help to be truthful.

I am on the 12th week of this study and....I am supposed to be showing "marked" improvement. I am not.

To be blunt, I can't go and I can't come, and I can't sleep. But otherwise the med has little or no effect.

My own words keep echoing in my head:

"You can't tell a diabetic to snap out of it. There is a chemical issue there, a problem that meds are the only help."

So here I am KNOWING I have a chemistry issue and there is no modern med available to help me.

I got a call from one of the docs I have done 7ish studies with, he is supposed to be the premier expert in the country, and he says go on an oral version of the meds I am on now. The ones that if I eat the wrong thing I could die......does anyone else find something HUGELY wrong with that?????

Let's give a depressed person a med that if they are slightly forgetful they can die.....!!!!!!!!! I would have to micromanage my eating. AND not eat the staples of my quite healthy diet.

He had people in this study who were "treatment resistant" like me better at 20mg. But I need in any med an inordinately high dose. It is just how my metabolism works.

Sorry, I meant to be brief.

Where do I go from here??? I keep going from: "Lisa you will find something." to crying uncontrolably. Hence the yo-yo.

Have to go teach spoiled brats.

Don't know what else to say.

Sure as heck don't know what to do.

ANY ideas?????

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Sat, 01-31-2004 - 11:12am
(((Lisa)))

I have no advice sweetie. But I am sending you some major mega-hugs.

Have you tried EVERY med out there? Not meaning to be funny or anything, that is a serious question.

Pamela

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Sat, 01-31-2004 - 2:15pm
Yup, I have tried one or two meds in every family of anti-depressant. Some that are even not in a family but are of their own (remeron and wellbutrin).

So here I am on the MAOI patch and still nothing.

Thanks for putting thought into me, I appreciate kind words and thoughts from friends.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Lisa-)

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Sat, 01-31-2004 - 2:33pm

((((((((((Lisa))))))))))), how terribly frustrated and discouraged you must be!

AcornLeaves
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Sun, 02-01-2004 - 5:42pm
Thanks for your input! I'd love websites to check out. I am so tired of trying so hard.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Sun, 02-01-2004 - 7:16pm

(((((((Lisa))))))), I e-mailed you a list of several websites.






Blessings,






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AcornLeaves