Alone......Triggers

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Alone......Triggers
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Sun, 02-01-2004 - 3:21pm
Alone I stand no one to take my hand. No, friends to be made or to have because the so called ones that appear to be my friends just use me and go on their way. Never have I known or will know what it is to be loved by a man. Never have I known or will ever know what it feels like to give birth or be a mother to a child. Never will I know the feeling of acually trusting someone to be a true friend to me. I am destin to be Alone in my life to stand in these wall I have built for myself. Because if I come out I leave myself open to be hurt again. I stand Alone.

Thank - you for listening to me.

Take care of yourselves.

Hugs,

Cathy

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Sun, 02-01-2004 - 5:04pm
Cathy,

I know that feeling. Is the pain worth risking love and friendship. I'm dealing with losing my best friend right now. I know that she never showed up as a real friend, but I kept giving to her, thinking that it would shift and change. Now I realize that I was a sucker. I gave way too much, though I know better than to give more than is in balance.

Everyone is really looking out for themselves in life. I think that's the nature of life. We can only take care of ourselves. Other people can love, but many really can't.

Last night someone reminded me not to take it personally. I know it's not about me, but I feel like a big sucker anyway. I don't miss her, just what I wanted her to be in my life.

Like they say, we can only be our own best friend. I know it sounds really cliche. But it's true. I've spent this week putting my energy into myself. It makes me see that I need to do that way more. I've been givng to this friend so much, that I didn't realize that I wasn't taking care of my own needs. I'm the only one who can really take care of me.

I guess that's what we're all supposed to do.

We're here for you, girl, but take good care of yourself. You're the best one for the job.

All My Love,

MariaC

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Mon, 02-02-2004 - 3:15am
{{{{Maria}}}}

Thank - you for your support at least I know I can count on you to give me a respones.

Take care of yourself {{{{Maria}}}}

Hugs,

Cathy

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 8:56am
(((Cathy)))

Sweetie, I am sorry that you are feeling so terrible. I have been having a rough couple of weeks myself.

I just wanted to send you some hugs and tell you that I am thinking of you.

Pamela

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 12:30pm

(((Cathy))),


I AM married and have 4 kids...it doesn't make a difference.

    CL for The

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Mon, 02-02-2004 - 1:14pm
{{{{Deb}}}}

Thank - you for your kind words. I know you are right but it is hard.

Take care of yourself {{{{Deb}}}}

Hugs

Cathy

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Mon, 02-02-2004 - 1:17pm
{{{{{Pamela}}}}}}

Thank - you for your kind words. I am sorry you are having a rough time of it. But you are not alone in this fight.

Sending some hugs.

Take care of yourself {{{{Pamela}}}}

Hugs

Cathy

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 2:29pm

(((((((Cathy)))))))), I know you feel very alone and isolated.

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 02-05-2003
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 2:40pm
Sweetie...

you're not alone. We're all here for you! I know it may not seem like much, but it's true. More than you know. We all love you and care about you! I promise you that! I've also found that patience is a virtue, and that with time, all good things will happen. I promise you that you will find someone that you can fall in love with. I promise you that you will have children. I promise you that you will find a true friend. You just have to give it time. I know that it's easier said than done, but just know that it worked for me, and it WILL work for you too. Believe me, I was down in the dumps, however, I know now that time is everything. I hope that things get better for you, and know that I'm here for you whenever you need it! Love you lots, and thinking of you!

Trixie