I am sooo drunk

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Registered: 01-21-2004
I am sooo drunk
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Sun, 02-01-2004 - 11:33pm
Do you think I am crazy ? I d0 sometimes. I have to find my way. But I am 24 and this is OK. Everyone I know that is my age spends more than half there time at parties. I think that I shouldn't drink but I don't know how I could ever not drink. I'm so stupid to post this here. I know there ara other peopel here my age. Do you ever drink? It's so hard for me not to. I get so down and tehn I don't know what else to do . Has anysone else gone through this. I need some advise please. I don't think I can quit but at the same time I feeel guilty and my therapist always makes me feel bad because I am on the medications that i am on. Its not that simple or that easy. Am I alone?

Piruli

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Registered: 03-30-2003
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Sun, 02-01-2004 - 11:55pm
i'm 24 too and i know what you mean about everyone drinking at parties. i was just at a super bowl party and i felt like i was in high school with people "peer pressuring" me to drink! it was ridiculous! but i don't really like to drink that much because i have a bad stomach and it hurts me to drink. so i am often the only one at the parties not drinking. people may tease for a minute and try to give you a drink, but usually it is just people that feel guilty that they are drinking when others aren't. so don't worry about that. i do have a glass of wine sometimes when i am having a hard day. there are many times when i have drank the night before and i feel my depression multiplied the next day. i know lots of people have a drink or two to unwind or be social, but if you feel like it is out of your control, i would say to talk to someone. i know that sounds like a bad and generic answer, but i want to make sure that you are ok. :) feel better.
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Registered: 01-21-2004
In reply to: piruli
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 12:12am
hey voguegirl,

thanks for posting so quickly. I really needed a response. I don't know what is up. I think I may be one of the dreaded "self-medicaters". Once I get on a low or a high really I start to crave alcohol. I once went to AA, but I didn't identitify. My husband is a true alcoholic. A serious alcoholic, and I am not the same. I don't know what I am or what my problems are. Am I depressed, bipolar, alcohlic, just drinking, normal or kinda crazy? I don't know. I don't know where I am....I'm trying to figure it out.

Thanks for answering and listening. I needed to hear from someone. I'm actually here in Houston, avoiding Superbowl (I have a thing about football). Went to a restaraunt for margaritas. Probably a bad idea!

Piruli

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Registered: 04-07-2003
In reply to: piruli
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 12:33am




((((((((((((((((((((((Piruli))))))))))))))))))))))


I know that many of us reach for the oblivion that comes from drinking and when you are young, it is very easy to get caught in the trap of drinking.

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Registered: 01-26-2004
In reply to: piruli
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 12:35am
Hi piruli. I'm 26, and I think I can relate. I don't drink a lot, myself (it doesn't take a lot for me to get loopy and feeling icky, plus I know it's not healthy inside and out and I try to moderate myself). In the past I used to find myself gravitating to a glass or two of wine to smother horrible feelings I frequently had due to my depression. I'd experience a craving, also. Even if I told myself I wasn't going to drink for a while, I'd still find myself seeking that escape. I've been actively trying to maintain a more healthy lifestyle, so I don't drink as much. Actually, I never ever drank a LOT, but I'd have maybe two glasses most days of the week, which is a lot for me. I bet it's not any easier, if your husband is an alcoholic as you said. I'm sorry about that. I've never experienced such a dilemma with a partner, so it is perhaps not my place to give advice where I'm not experienced, but it seems logical to my brain that if somehow you both talked about that issue, maybe you both could help each other curb your cravings and stop each other from reaching for the bottle/glass, but I also imagine that it wouldn't be as easy as that and, so....oh, what do I know....Sorry, just musing. But maybe it's a possibility?


I just love quoting songs, especially if I feel they articulate a certain feeling or have relevance to a life situation-- this one (from a Dead Can Dance song) really summarizes the conscious struggle I experience to stay healthy : "I need my conscience to keep watch over me to protect me from myself." (I wish you could hear the song, it's great, but that's beside the point). So I guess what I'm saying is, I have gone through something similar to what you are talking about. I guess if it's mild (like my experience), then consciously tending to your habit may be a big help. Keep an eye on yourself, as if you're your own guardian. Hm, it's late and I'm tired and foggy now, but I hope this comes as somewhat of a consolation and if i'm of any help, great. Please take care of yourself.

Love and sunshine,

Marissa

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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: piruli
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 9:33am
I'm even younger than you and I am married with a son....I also drink sometimes but not to wash my worries away....if you are doing this, you should consider stopping before it gets you into another problem...alcholism! I mean, alot of times I feel like I am missing out and I want to party and drink and do all those fun things other my age are doing but, the reality is I can't and I have to deal with that....


Sara

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Registered: 07-15-2003
In reply to: piruli
Mon, 02-02-2004 - 9:55am
(((Piruli)))

Hi sweetie.

I am 25, but I grew up with an alcoholic mother so I try to stay away from alcohol. I drink when I go out and stuff, but unless I am going out all night, I don't drink.

I just wanted to say that I am here if you need to talk, you can email me through my profile.

Take care

Pamela

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Registered: 03-26-2003
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Mon, 02-02-2004 - 12:23pm

(((piruli))),


I am bipolar and my mom was a BAD alcoholic when I was younger.

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Registered: 01-21-2004
In reply to: piruli
Wed, 02-04-2004 - 5:56pm
Ladies -

I have been MIA for a couple of days, but wanted to come back to this post and thank each of you for responding and giving me your unique input. I am sorry I came and posted while I was in that state, I was alone, and apparantly really wanted to talk. All and all, my tdoc is right that I shouldn't be drinking on these meds. I've never had a problem drinking on the AD, but I was also taking an Antibiotic and this anti-eptileptic medication for the bipolar (which I stopped taking now). I imagine that the combination of that coctail with one margarita and three beers is what caused me to feel the way I did. I admit it - very bad idea!!! I also think I tend to beat myself up (as I do in all situations) way to much on drinking because I have seen what alcoholism does and I am very afraid of it. However, I do know that I am not an alcoholic. I give a special thanks for advice from those who are survivors of these kind of relationships.

I also wanted to let you ladies know that I did not have the little one with me and would never put him in that kind of situation or danger. I have to go pick up my son, but will be back soon. I have been thinking about everyone here - each of you is so sweet and I feel blessed to have the chance to come here to talk.

*see* ya soon,

Piruli