FEEL LIKE I AM SINKING IN MUD! TRIGGS??
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FEEL LIKE I AM SINKING IN MUD! TRIGGS??
| Mon, 02-09-2004 - 6:35pm |
I am very upset with myself right now and more then likely I shouldn't be. Yesterday at my mom's we had a combined birthday party for me and gram. Needless to say it was a stress filled nerve wrecking day. Wasn't a great birthday party because of all the stress and tension. I got all cash and a jogging suit from Deb(sister). I planned on putting my birthday money aside and start saving to get my drivers side window fixed but I went to Wal-Mart today and bought some stuff some of which I needed and some I wanted. Now out of $100 I have about $30.00 and am really feeling like beating myself up over it. Part of me is like you will save money out of your checks each month and it is your birthday and if it made you feel good then great. Does that make sense? I am at the library and it is getting dark and I am worried about the cops catching me driving with one headlight but yet I need to be venting so I don't do harm to myself i.e cut.Anyway I am trying to get through day by day but it feels like the mud is pulling me down harder and harder and soon I will drown. Love and Hugs Andrea

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