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| Wed, 02-11-2004 - 1:14pm |
Hi I would like to introduce myself. My name is Shannon I am 33 yrs old. I have a 4 yr old daughter and am currently 32 weeks pregnant with a boy. I am a RN, I work PT night shift in Labor and Delivery, although I am currently on leave from work. I was diagnosed with depression about 4 yrs ago right after my dd was born. Before her birth after 30 yrs of marraige my dad left my mom. My mom went completely nuts and expected alot from me, more than I could give her after giving birth to my 1st child. We had never had a great relationship, but got along ok, and she wanted me to be her everything. I had alot of resentment toward her for situations that she put me through. I have tried to resolve much of that, but I doubt it will ever all go away. Things are calm and settled now with the divorce. I have been married for 10yrs to a wonderful man, but last yr we had some major issues as well. He almost left me b/c he was unhappy. I had spent so much time and energy being a mom and dealing with my mother that I neglected our marraige and just basically took and took from him and didn't give back. He never expressed any feelings about any of this and found a "freind" online that he started communicating with on the phone as well. It all came to a head when I found his cell phone bill. At that point we almost split. I wanted to work things out, he wasn't sure, but eventually decided he wanted to got to counsling with me. My therapist is wonderful and she helped us resolve many issues. I have been on medication (Celexa) for a few yrs and before I got pregnant I was feeling great. Things in my life were good and I felt good. When I found out I was pg I stopped taking the Celexa, it has not been studied in preg and I had been thinking of trying to go off anyway. I was extremely ill my whole 1st trimester, some of the time unable even to shower, and became depressed again. Starting in my 2nd trimester my dr put me on wellbutrin but a very low dose of 75 mg which I had been taking until a few days ago when I was increased to 150 SR. The past few weeks have been horrendous for me. I am very depressed again, old issues with my husband are resurfacing and being preg I am feeling very insecure. All of my syptoms are back with a vengence. I finally broke down and told my husband how I was feeling, b/c I had been hiding it from him. I don't want to be burden and be like my mother...ever. The past few days have been better, I am trying to help myself now and I would love to join in the support here. I am scared about post partum, being a maternal/child health nurse I know post partum will likely be harder than preg hormonally. I would like to hear others coping techniques and stories.
Shannon

I am not a mother, so I can't really help you out in that area.
I just wanted to say hi and welcome you.
Looking forward to getting to know you.
Take care
Pamela
*hugs