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| Sat, 02-14-2004 - 1:18pm |
Thanks so much for all the feed back, and i really took all of it into consideration. It's just that nothing does it for me. Maybe it's the depression. But i can't think of a single thing worth looking forword too. I sit alone in this god damn house just waiting. But i have no idea for what. There's nothing happening. My friends have all become tired of me, they don't talk to me or return any of my calls. It seems the only thing i do is smoke up and thinking that that's all my life is is a sad thought. the "great" things in life aren't enough for me to want to live through this. Why suffer now, why struggle over this? so i can work, so i can meet more people to hurt me, so i can keep being a dissapointment, nothing in life seems to make up for all the bad things. Seeing and expierencing things aren't what they used to be. at least if im going to see and expierence them alone. Ive been in rehab for the drug problem for over 2 months now. I dont remeber when i started drugs, it was a couple years ago i guess. But its really my only comfort anyway. Nothing else gives me a feeling of happiness and even if its fake im taking whatever joy i can.
