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| Sun, 02-15-2004 - 3:58pm |
i had a really great and really bad vanlentine's day at the same time. my boyfriend is wonderful! he got me a dozen long stem red roses (i have never had that before) and we went to dinner and saw hairspray with another couple. boyfriend was so sweet. but half way through the show, i started feeling really naucous. then at almost the end, i had to run out of the theatre because i felt so sick. i tried to downplay it, but my sweetheart boyfriend apparently went out after me to make sure i was ok, but when he didn't find me, sent the girl we were with out to go in the bathroom and make sure i was ok. then he stayed with me and comforted me to the point where i started crying and telling him how horrible my stomach has been lately and i looked up and he was crying too! (i have never seen him cry!) so it was weird, as much as i felt terrible, it was wonderful to see how loving he was when i was at my worst and i guess that is really what valentine's day is.
today, he left my place early and wanted to go to this thing with his friends and wanted me to come with but my stomach struck again right before we were leaving, so he was going to go then hang out with me after. well, he called me and his friends wanted to go for coffeee and he wanted me to meet them, then we went shopping while we were out (for those chicago people- we live right by oak street/michigan ave, so starbucks is across from really good shopping!). now he is feeling icky and when he feels bad he likes to be alone, so we never got to spend time together without me being half dying. so in my weak physical state, i am getting myself all worked up about how i want him to be with me now and he's not- silly i know. but i don't feel good so i'm allowed! i don't really see him much during the week, so sat/sun is all we get. i am even getting so carried away that i am telling myself that i was too much for him, and now he doesn't want to be around me. a lot of people have done that to me. this is getting long, so i'll stop now.
hope everyone had a good valentine's day.

Love ya!
Trix
((((((Hon))))))), I am sorry you are in such pain!
Your boyfriend sounds absolutely wonderful! I know your stomach is paining you, but please don't worry about pushing him away. I am totally sure that he is just not feeling well and deals with it differently.
And you are right, when you aren't feeling good, you can be a sucky as you want sugar!!
Take care, hope you are feeling better.
Pamela
I'm so sorry about your pain. Your boyfriend seems so amazing. Do you have a diagnosis for your stomach problems? There must be something that you can do to get better. I don't want to push you. You may have already spent a lot of time exploring solutions. I just know how it is to have a chronic condition that gets in the way of living your life. But often there are solutions that we can find later. It took my mom a year of going to doctors to find a cure to what turned out to be a thyroid condition. It took me two and half years to find a cure for my chronic fatigue syndrome. Have you been checked for an ulcer? My stepdad had one. It was cured with medication. My sister thought she had an ulcer, but it turned out that she had to cut back on the coffee and Mexican food. Then she was fine. I'm just saying that there are so many things it can be. Debilitating pain is horrible. I hope we can help you find an end to this problem. It's an awful thing to go through. It sucks to feel like you can't live you life.
BTW, I'm still down about my stupid ex situation, though it was awesome to get a break from it last week with all the excitement of seeing Sting from the first row. I love that man!
All My Love,
Maria