Maybe depressed? (newbie)

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Maybe depressed? (newbie)
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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 6:27am
This is my 1st time at this board though I have been on ivillage before. Im thinking I may be depressed. I have taken some online tests that say I am & I really feel I am but I dont want to be on meds. I have so many family members on them & I just dont want to be dependent on drugs. See my DH is deployed right now but Ive been doing great throughout it until this last week. Out of nowhere I was not sleeping (tossing & turning all night. awake every hour), I felt snappy to my son, tired and then like I could cry if only given a sec alone to do it. I told my 2 year old I was taking out the trash just so I could have a min outside by myself (freezing cold at night). I had just started a new BC pill 3 weeks ago & thought Friday oh wait, these pills could be messing with me (major depression being one of the side effects) so I stopped taking them. I feel a little better but Im wondering how much is NOT going to get better w/o the BC. My DH should be home in less than 2 mos & right now Im trying to stick it out. But then I think I should talk to my doc who when giving me the BC asked if I felt depressed I said mostly no..now I feel worse.

So any help about your situation that may be similar to mine would be helpful. Have any of you had problems like this with BC & what did you do?
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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 6:51am

(((((((((((((((((((Kimberly))))))))))))))))))))


I feel so bad that I dont have time to reply right now!! But I wanted you to know that Im here and I care!!


Im sure you will get lots of replies as the day goes on and I will definately post to you when I get home from work!!


Lots of Love and *hugs.......... glad you are here! Flower

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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 8:40am
I was the same way when I first was diagnosed with depression. I did not want meds, I felt like it was a sign of weakness. Why couldn't I just deal with things? My therapist (who is a wonderful woman) finally talked me into it. It was the best decision I ever made. For the first time in yrs I felt what it's like to feel normal, to not live everyday irritated or sad. The pills aren't magic, I still felt all the normal feelings I felt but I am just able to handle things wihtout drowning in them. Depression is a chemical disease, if you don't have a problem meds won't make you "high or dependant". You should talk to your dr about this, he/she can help you figure out if meds are right for you. I didn't want to be dependant on meds forever either, but I finally came to the conclusion that just like any other disease it needs to be treated. If a pill can help me live my life normal then that is what it takes. It's ok with me b/c I know I don't have to feel bad, there is help. Good luck.

Shannon

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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 9:08am
Welcome Kimberly!!!!

Shannon gave you awesome advice. If you had diabetes, would you not take meds? It's pretty much the same thing here sweetie. Somebody please correct me if I am wrong, but most (if not all) anti depressants aren't addictive. They don't cover up your problems for you, but they enable you to deal with the things that come up in daily life without throwing your hands up and giving up!

Take care sweetie.

Pamela

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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 1:32pm

(((((((Kimberly))))))), welcome to our board!

AcornLeaves
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Mon, 02-16-2004 - 3:50pm

HI again Kimberly Im back hehe


Sorry about the brief reply this morning..


Anyway hun, My suggestion to you would be to definately go talk to you doctor again and be truthful.

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Wed, 02-25-2004 - 4:49pm
thanks everyone. Well a lot has happened. I had a panic attack shortly after this post it scared me so. I called my sis who is 2 1/2 hours away & begged her to come down. I felt like I was dying & couldnt do anything about it. I was soo scared to be alone. My sis came & went to the doc with me. He thinks I may have been on the verge of depression & the BC threw me over. He said no pills for me right now & he started me on an antidepressant. The 1st night I took it I felt out of it & very strange had my sis & BIL not been here I may have flipped but they talked me through it. So after that I tried a half which didnt make me feel strange. I was doing great (no problems) for the week I was at my sis. We came home last night & about an hour after I was home it hit me I was alone. I got maybe 2 hours of sleep last night. I was dry heaving & felt on the verge of an attack (I worked on controling my breathing since my doc said that could keep them from happening) all night & even part of today. I have another apt March 3 so Im just trying to get through that. Im so upset that I may feel this way forever. DO any of you have panic attacks & how do you deal with it? Thanks Just knowing some one elses experiences helps me get through this. But if I dont feel better in the next few days I may just head back up to my sisters.
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Wed, 02-25-2004 - 5:01pm

Yes I suffer from panic attacks they are no fun.

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Wed, 02-25-2004 - 6:46pm



I dont suffer from panic attacks but I get a little too anxxious sometimes especially when I have the urge to do something that can not be done like small projects that I think of at say 12 am and the home depot is closed I freak out and cry and I get all hot and my stomach turns or when I want to work out but I cant I freak out but I am learning to talk myself out of feeling that way I basically talk myself down telling myself that these things dont need to be done now and that it can wait and I will have time tomorrow to do them ect....

I do not take antidepressants I take a mood stabilizer I am bipolar and I am on the pill it is called nor-QD and it is great it doesnt have estrogen in it and there is no side effect for me and I have tried every pill out there with really bad side effects and I got happy when this one worked out for me it is almost like the shot in a way but you still get your period and it is usually right on time you just need to take it the same exact time every day I use the alarm on my cell phone to remind me and if you are 3 or more hours late it is like missing a does so if you do not mind a schedual which I need to have a schedual ( I am not happy if things are not at a set time place events are not planned ect..) so this pill is great for me.

Talk to your doctor about what you are going thru talk to him about different meds and different options these meds do not control you or turn you into a zombie so dont worry about that and the side effects do go away just keep an eye on them..granted I hate the fact that I have to take these meds to function normally but if it will keep me sane then I guess I have no other choice.

Good luck hun and welcome to the board..Glad to hear that you will have your hubby home soon where is he deployed Iraq? is he a marine army air force navy?

Erin