3am...can't sleep....going to babble
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|Sun, 07-18-2010 - 6:30am|
Well it's 3:25 am PST and I cannot sleep. I have tried to lay down and relax and go to sleep but I just can't. I have been having lots of trouble with my anxiety and I am really getting frustrated with it. I had such a bad night on Thursday that I took 2 valium and drank a bunch of brandy. I dont' drink . The only reason I had the brandy in the house was for a cookie receipe that I love to bake. It was horrible, I felt horrible. I scared the crap out of DH and he was so scared he called my mom and she came over. He also called one of my best friends and she came over and prayed over me. This is something I am not proud of at all. I know that I should have turned to God when I was in this deepest, darkest place, but sometimes the enemy just grabs a hold of us so tight that we just can't seem to find our way out.