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| Tue, 02-17-2004 - 12:26am |
I'm sorry that i'm just rambling on I will understand if I'm not welcomed here anymore. I feel so selfish because I just want to go and do things without my kids so I can have peace to myself but I feel that I want that too often. What's wrong with me? Why can't I enjoy my children like I see all the other moms do. My daughters are 6 and 4. Also, I feel so awful to say this but sometimes I notice that when family members are around that I want them to see that I'm a good mom so I go overboard and I kind of feel like I'm faking it (being a good mom) just so that they'll think I'm the best and then I'll think why do I do that to get their approval, why don't I just do that for my kids because I want to do it for them? See, what is wrong with me? I heard someone say once on a talk show that motherhood SUCKS 80% of the time and that's how I feel. Am I really that bad?
Am I too selfish?
Thanks for letting me vent. I would really appreciate anyone to help me or just talk with me.
Suzie

((((((((((((((SUSIE)))))))))))))))))) Welcome to the board!!
You are not a bad Mom at all hun!!
*hugs
I am not a mother, so I won't try to give you any advice.
I just wanted to send you some hugs and tell you that I HAVE read your post.
Take care sweetie
Pamela
And yes, I've had the feeling too sometimes that I don't want my kids to be around, and I hate myself for it. You are not alone.
Ilka
I just wanted to respond to your post because sometimes I feel the same way. I have an 11 yr old son, who by the way has become very difficult! Anyway, I usually plan to do things as a family but with our busy schedules it doesn't always work out. I find myself very irritable in the evening after work because there's the cooking and the clean up and the homework if necessary. I feel like I'm drowning in chores and things to do as a parent that I have grown to dislike it so much I've decided not to have any more children. I'm not that old but not that young either and my patience isn't what it used to be. I do make time for myself (I go to the gym 3-4 times a week, and I read when I can which is usually late at night) but it never seems to be enough. I do have to say when my son goes to stay with his grandma for the weekend (about once a month) I really enjoy the quiet time but I feel the weekend just isn't enough. I might add there are many other things going on in my life now that are adding to my irritableness but I know things will change eventually...they have to!
Don't beat yourself up over this and try to make more time for you. Does your son take naps? This could be a time for you to read or do whatever you enjoy doing. If you don't have someone to watch him, find someone. Get references from other moms. Having a babysitter is essential. Lastly, this won't last forever. Children grow up and move out on their own.
Take care of yourself!