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Hi to all
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Fri, 02-27-2004 - 10:54pm
Hi everyone,((( Pam )))I just read your post from Friday check in. It makes me feel so good to know that you were happy to hear from me. I was going to try to catch up on posts----but I haven't checked in in so long that I'm afraid it will be impossible. I did read a few. (((Caly))) I am sending you prayers and support. I admire you so much for being able to do what needed to be done.

I have been having a rough time ( and I know all of you have been too). I feel terrible complaining about it. I read these posts and it seems like so many of you have problems that are real and you have real reasons to be depressed. I have no real reason. Just lousy chemicals in my brain I guess!!!

My therapist is going to talk to my doctor about trying an MAOI. I've been reading about them and I don't think my doctor will do it. I have mild asthma and that doesn't go along with most MAOI's and the dietary restrictions sound like a pain. Anyone have any experience with these?

I wish I had one of you to talk to right now. I am feeling so overwhelmed, suicidal, etc........ yes, I have friends I can call----but you know----people who do not have to put up with depression can never truely understand what we are going thru.

I think I am wandering all over the place---so I should stop. Take care everyone, Debbie
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: flute54
Fri, 02-27-2004 - 11:14pm
Debbie, I too was happy to hear from you! I am sorry that things are still rough for you. I have been in a bit of the same bind.

My advice to you about the MAOI's, there is an experimental patch out. Most docs can get it if they apply to be a participant physician in the study. So ask your doc to do that, it may be paper work, but the other way (orally) is a mess.

I refused to go on them because of the diet. It seems odd to me to give a med to a person that if you eat the wrong thing you could die. Especially if that person is suicidal....the irony is too much!!!

I sure hope you can find a patch study or you can get your medical doc to apply to get it for you. I had a very tiny response to it. It put me into side effect hell....like all of them for me. The docs of this study were quite surprised, the med had worked for almost everyone else in the study. They have had tremdous success with it, I hope this can be in your future.

You are too important of a human to not find something to help.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Registered: 03-30-2003
In reply to: flute54
Fri, 02-27-2004 - 11:37pm
oh, sweetie. i hope you always feel like you can vent whatever you want- even if you don't know what that is. i don't know much about what is going on with you, so i don't know what to do to help- but if you want to talk about it, i will be hapoy to offer whatever advice and support i can. i hope that you feel better soon! if i can help, just let me know!
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Registered: 04-09-2003
In reply to: flute54
Sat, 02-28-2004 - 1:42am
Debbie,

I was so excited to see your moniker on the board! I'm sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. I've been doing really well for the last week, but for the two weeks before that, I had a REALLY bad time. The worst in a while.

I made a big turn one day. I let out a bunch of anger by yelling on the freeway a whole bunch of times. Then I got some really supportive posts on here that helped to look at the situation in a better light. Then my dh came home, and I made shift inside. But I was feeling worthless and depressed, even a little suicidal for a while there.

I've heard that the MAOs require a pretty intense diet. Have you tried the herb SAMe? Is your therapist doing Cogntive Behavior Therapy? Is this most recent downward spiral related to events, or is it a longer, more generalized depressed period?

As you know, being depressed is an illness, it isn't about if you have "real" reasons or not. So don't get down on yourself about that. Do you have The Feeling Good Handbook by David Burns, MD? I know these are my stock answers, but they are the things that have helped me. A lot. Paxil makes a big difference for me. I can feel it in my system every day, giving a generalized sense of peace. But when I go into a deep depression, it doesn't keep me out of it or get me out of it. It's more like it keeps my mood steady day to day.

I'm praying for you and pulling for you. Welcome back to the board!

MariaC