Losing it

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Registered: 04-04-2003
Losing it
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Sat, 02-28-2004 - 5:27pm
I've been on meds for a year and a half and its been rocky but ok. Well the last week I have lost it! I'm sure its very stress driven - someone very special to me is sick and has been saying hurtful things. I love him and he loves me, but he's saying we can't be together now and doesn't see anything wrong with his rude behavior lately (ie: not returning my calls or just not showing up when we had plans last night). I care about him so much and I see how it is killing me right now, but I don't know what to do since he is very sick and in and out of the hospital. I don't want to cause stress for him even though I need to be able to talk. Plus last night on my way home some car honked at me in the crosswalk and someone in another car yelled out to them "hit her!!"

I'm so miserable. The last two nights I have cried hysterically, unable to stop for hours. No wonder people aren't wanting to spend time with me. I wish that person had hit me last night. At least then maybe I'd be in a hospital with someone taking care of me instead of being alone.

This stinks!

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Registered: 01-26-2004
In reply to: seya79
Sat, 02-28-2004 - 8:56pm

Welcome, (((((((Seya 79)))))))).

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