JUST ABOUT GIVEN UP! TRIGGS? VERY SAD

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Registered: 05-12-2003
JUST ABOUT GIVEN UP! TRIGGS? VERY SAD
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Sun, 02-29-2004 - 2:39pm
I have just about given up. I have tried pulling myself up and it just isn't working. I think that the black cloud that has swallowed me up doesn't want to let go until I am dead and it almost seems like it would be better that way. Like the song goes I can't fight this feeling anymore.I am drained of all energy and I would be quite content to pull the covers over my head. We have sunshine and warmer weather the last couple days and I can't even enjoy that. I have everyone doing things for me and it is quite sad really.I don't matter and I just have to accept that this beast of depression wants me dead. Love and Hugs Andrea
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Registered: 01-26-2004
Sun, 02-29-2004 - 9:48pm
(((((((Andrea)))))))), it is good that you were able to get out and go to the library.
AcornLeaves
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Registered: 03-27-2003
Mon, 03-01-2004 - 12:22am
Andrea, you can make it...the feelings will pass, as hard as that is to see right now. I also know the feeling of the dark cloud enveloping my life and my thoughts...sometimes it is just a matter of time, of doing small things for yourself each day (like going and sitting in the sun for a little while, as Barb suggested), of continuing to talk with your therapist, until things slowly improve. You have a lot to offer still, and a lot of life to experience...as bad as everything looks right now, please just hang in there until things start looking up.

You'll be in my thoughts,

Rose

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Registered: 02-25-2004
Tue, 03-02-2004 - 10:06am
Andrea, God Bless you , I have been there an it does get better and you will get better. Hang on and don't worry about depending on others. Right now that is what you need. Find a good friend or family member and tell them every day or a couple times a day that you want to get better. My daughter-in-law is my support person. You are allowed dear one. If you can find that one person you will do much better. Someone you feel unconditional love from. It takes time but with meds and therapy it goes away. God will hold your hand too if you ask. Every time I feel really bad I grab ahold of his hand and call my support person. Don't push yourself to do things yet, it will frustrate you too much. Just relax if you can and go with it. It will get better you will get better. Trust. Baby steps. and I do mean baby steps. It can't go fast and know that there are many many people out here just like you. Remember find that person. Once you do it will help.