New here........coming out of lurkdom

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Registered: 03-27-2003
New here........coming out of lurkdom
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Thu, 03-04-2004 - 9:31pm
I have been depressed for what seems like forever. At least 15 years(Im 30 now) Im so sick of feeling this way, yet I never really take steps to fix it. Oddly enough, I never "feel like it". I feel so inspired sometimes to make changes, then NEVER do anything about it. I have been offered anti depressants before for this, but Im so afraid to take them. Im afraid of everything and anything. Im a big hypochondriac on top of it. What doesnt help is Im also a stay at home mom, so Im somewhat isolated from the outside world. My husband is patient, but just doesnt understand depression, and my fears, and has no idea how he can help.

I feel like such a sorry little person. It's like on the inside I know I can being doing things to at least help myself, but I dont. It's always "someday when". Im so tired of this. I have been reading through the posts here, and although I wish no one feel this way, it helps to know Im not alone.

I just dont know how to help this. Im not sure if there was a point to this post. I think it just feels really good to get it out there.

Thanks for listening,

Dina

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 03-04-2004 - 9:39pm

"I think it just feels really good to get it out there. "


Dina Welcome!!

*hugs             

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Thu, 03-04-2004 - 9:47pm
HUGS Dina. I too was scared of meds but now Im SOOO happy I started them! I feel like a new person! Anywho I hope you feel free to post & share!
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Fri, 03-05-2004 - 2:33pm


You said something that really struck me and took me aback it was that you are TIRED of feeling this way, and from my understanding being tired of feeling a certain way is the first step to doing something to change it my therapist tells me that I will become tired of living the way I do and that is when I will finally look for the help that I need to get over what I am sure one day I will become tired of.

When I first started to post here I was not on meds or seeing a therapist I was curious to see if what I was feeling was real and speaking with the ladies here helped me see that I was no alone that what was going on in my head was real and not something that I created, I was against meds at first most because of fear of someone finding out now I am pretty open about it with people I figure if I can educate one person than it is well worth it in the end.

Have you ever played with the idea of taking meds?

Do you see a therapist?

have you taken other stabs st alieviating these feelings?

I hope that you will continue to post here often this really is a great place to be.

Erin

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Fri, 03-05-2004 - 3:58pm
Welcome (((Dina!!)))

I think not wanting to do anything about depression is something that we have all felt. In fact, it is a symptom of depression! I can tell you from experience, though, that it really helps to see a therapist, or take meds, or even just get out in the sun for a walk.

People who don't suffer with depression don't "get it". They think it is something you can just get over. And men, even men with depression, are so different from women.

This is a great place to vent, discuss and even help others who are dealing with the same thing as you.

Look at it this way, you have taken a great first step. You are on your way, sweetie.

Take care.

Pamela

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Fri, 03-05-2004 - 5:25pm
There are people who depend on drugs to get by day to day. Others like me who've been there, just don't need the help of drugs.

What I do is to keep busy. Before there was computer, I did volunteer jobs. Help in my kids' schools, or someplace. Just an excuse to mingle with people and to maintain that normal attitude. Someone who inspires me to think more positive, rather than the negatives. When I go home, if my house isn't normal, everything in chaos, those things makes me depressed. I try to get DH to help clean up, so things looksed normal. Actually, he told me: if you've made the bed, you've accomplish something. Take it one day at a time. Sometimes, now that I'm not working and kids are grown, I just don't feel like even getting up and getted dressed, but I have to have a reason to get up and get dressed. The volunteer job is my excuse to get dressed or go shopping. Another day come and goes, before you know it, another year have come and gone. Do the things you love to do, if you don't have one, maybe learn a hobby, visit the libraries and get motivated to read something.

Maybe, I don't even know what I'm talking about. Maybe I do, because there are times, I felt like I just want to die and end it all. Like when I was getting close to being 30. I went thru it, then it happened again by the time I'm nearing 40. Then by 50, I know I'm halfway there. Find someone in your life who inspires you. My mom can be an inspiring, other times I felt like she's the one pushing me to 'end it all'. Yes, I have them again, during the holidays. blah blah blah. But, I get get down to the lowest bottom, and in a couple days, I'm as high as a bird. Drugs, for me? I'd probably woudn't even make it out of bed. IMO that's how sensitive about drugs does to me. Advil, for migraine, is all.