I'm SICK and TIRED....(caution)

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I'm SICK and TIRED....(caution)
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Sat, 03-06-2004 - 2:23pm
I hate my family life, it's killing me. My father is an a-hole, a jackass, and an abuser. He has hurt me a lot emotionally and mentally all of my life, and to this day, it is continuing. I'm in my last semester of school, about 6 weeks left and he is making it a living hell for me. He decides to tell my brother, while I'm around that he is going to work, and if he drops dead, then we could bury him six feet under. Lately, he's been saying that and I'm fed up.I told him shut-up and stop saying that, and he asked if he was talking to me, but he wasn't, but I was there when he said that. He told me to F-You, and told him not to tell me that, and I also told him to refrain from saying that. He then tells me that he could tell me lots of things to refrain from saying, but I would tell him that it is not of his business which is what he said. My mother is saying that she is going to see this social worker, and talk to her about it, but my mother has been cancelling them lately, so I really don't believe a word she says. I can't go, because I have school and assignments are due very soon. Every day counts, and I just can't handle this anymore...

When I move out of here in five years, and he is still like this, he will be very sorry for how he treated me. It shows that he treats my brother differently than myself.

Today, I have to go to a Cabaret night, and pretend nothing happened, meanwhile, inside, I feel like hanging myself. I'm fed up!

I don't know how long I can handle this anymore, and don't know how long I could do this w/o messing up with school. I made honours, and just afraid that I will lose it. I get no support from him at all for school. He doesn't talk to me at all. I'm fed up!

Kristina

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Sat, 03-06-2004 - 3:23pm

Welcome, (((((Kristina))))).

AcornLeaves
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Sat, 03-06-2004 - 3:46pm

Hi Kristina,


I have a father much like yours.

    CL for The

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Sat, 03-06-2004 - 9:23pm
{{{Kristina}}}

I haven't read your other replies yet, so sorry if I am repetative!

I am from Manitoba, when I read that you are going to a cabaret, I figured you were from SK or ON, as those are the only places I've heard that word used!

Anyway, I am sorry to hear that your dad is not a very nice man. My dad was mentally and emotionally abusive when I was growing up. It is not fun, and it really shapes the person that you become. BTW, congrats on the fabulous grades!! Do you have any other options for a place to live? Relatives, friends? Because you DON'T need to put up with that crap.

Anyway, I just wanted to say hi. I am not sure if you have posted here before or not, I haven't been here much lately except to do roll call.

Pamela

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Sun, 03-07-2004 - 5:26pm
Can I offer some advice? I couldn't tell how old you were by the way you were talking, but if you are in high school, you may be able to get help from these social workers that you're mom is going to see, whether she sees them or not. I am a social worker for a state. It's my job to investigate reports of child abuse and neglect, and what you're describing sounds like emotional abuse, from you're father. You're mother is not protecting you from this abuse, and is just as guilty at not protecting you. Tell someone at school, a guidance counselor, a teacher, a friend. If you can get the name of these social workers from your mom, call them! It's their job to listen. Many states have independent living programs for teens, where if the child is in any immediate danger in the home, they can be removed, and placed in this type of program to help them learn skills at becoming an adult.

If you are already an adult, maybe going to college, but still living with you're parents, you can still get help. You may want to visit the local Women's crisis center (they are not only for women in domestic relationships with their boyfriends/husbands). I encourage you to get out of the home NOW, not 5 years from now, before something happens that you might be blamed for.