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| Sun, 03-07-2004 - 10:08pm |
Anyway, I'm in tears....all the time. I don't know what to do anymore. Family life is horrendous, and not just in my home.
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Why is it that bad things always happen to good people? My aunt is probably been the most selfish person I have ever known. I can't believe her. In front of my grandmother, she told my mother viciously that she didn't want my grandmother living with her, and that she was making her life hell. I don't know how she can do that. On top of it all she's hurting my uncle (my mom and uncle's mother is the one who's being yelled about). I can't deal with all of this anymore. Stress beyond stress.
My father has been giving me a hard time too. Due to uncontrollable circumstances, I have had to move back home. From that, My dad has been terrible to live with. He's called me fat, which I am, but you don't need your father telling youthat. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. I can't really move out, as I have no money (which isn't why I had to move home--i've been living pretty much pay check to pay check fine). I can't take it anymore.
My boyfriend is there for me, but he's always studying, as he should. He's got to take his boards soon, and there's stress there. Sometimes I just wish that I could have a "normal" boyfriend that's ALWAYS there for me. I don't know.
I'm not giong to have a job next year, due to budget cuts in the school, and I don't know what I'm going to do for work. It's making me crazy. I'm going to go nuts. I am alredy halfway there.
Thanks for listening to me. I appreciate it. I love you all. I don't know what I would do without you.
XOXO
Trix

I wish I could wave a magic wand to help everyone out. I just hate that life has to be so tough. You deserve a break sweetie. Can you say something to your dad? I mean, come on. That is just totally uncalled for. I think you should confront the man and tell him that what he says is hurtful and you want him to stop. You so totally don't deserve that. My dad was like that when I was growing up, but thankfully he isn't anymore. I have told him how much what he did hurt me and he has apologized. I think it is worth a try sweetie.
Thinking of you.
Pamela
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My Sweet Friend!
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don't worry, sweetie- everything will work out! i was just talking about the names my father has called me in the past today. it hurts more than any one else when your parents insult you. i'm sorry he said that. it's very brave and resourceful of you to have moved home if you're having money trouble. i am having major money issues and i have been dipping into my savings to pay for stuff because i won't move home. money is a very stressful thing- which goes hand in hand with employment. as soon as your job ends, go straight to the unemployment office. you can get checks until you are able to get a job. that's what i did and i don't know what i would be doing otherwise! it will all work out. i know it will. you deserve to be treated wonderfully, and i can't give your dad or anyone else dirty looks or scold them for making you feel bad, but i can promise you that i won't do it to you. if you need anything, just let me know. i hope you feel better soon!
and boy do I know about the money thing..Vegas trip the end of this month..I'm going to have to skimp on bills and groceries to have any money while I'm there..and I'm talking food money and possible hotel room money, in case the BF comes..
I love you though..
*hugs*
Jenn
Honey, read what I wrote to "the other Erin".
Hey there woman, I am so glad to hear from you, I have missed you.
Lets tackel the Aunt issue, she sounds like the worst person in the world how dare she speak to your mom in that tone and talk to your grandmother that way who does she think she is and dont worry she will get hers in time she will need someone to help her and no one will be there to help because of the way she treated people.
The boyfriend I am glad that you support his studing it is very important but I also know what it is like to need someone but knowing that they need to get things done and not wanting to disrupt the study process, dont worry the boards will come up and he will take the test do very well on them and you can have your boyfriend back.
As for your dad I agree with the other ladies here you need to tell him that you do not accept the way he is speaking to you and that it hurts you he should not call you fat and by the way you are not fat so dont think that, be honest with pops tell him that he can not continue to speak to you in that tone and say hurtful things to you.
As for the job , a friend of mine is a teacher and I know that around here there is a place for teachers to go when they are out of work and they help them find schools to teach in is there an info line in the area that you live in I know around here it is 211 and they have all sorts of things on it that help out people look into it I am sure that you will find something.
Hun all is not lost things will improve with time dry your eyes and smile it will make you feel better.
Erin