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| Sat, 03-13-2004 - 10:36am |
I'm scared. I started effexor last week and I'm not nearly as lethargic as I was on celexa, so that's really good. But I start doing things enthusiastically and then poof! All my energy vanishes, I get all cold, I feel sick and want to run home and hide. Every day I tell myself I will cook a healthy meal, eat more veggies and fruit - and then I can't face it and end up eating cereal again. I think I want to be able to relax, curl up in bed and have somebody take care of me for a change, but I also want to feel better and enjoy my life again. I desperately want to work but when I sit down at my pc a zillion things go through my head and fatigue hits again. I really really want to give in but I'm afraid of falling into the total blackness that some people experience. My doctor wants me to go away on a vacation fo a long time, and so do I, but I can't even make up my mind about this. A friend of mine is willing to come with me and it should be great, but I am just so scared of the financial repercussions because I'm not working. In the past three months I had been writing non-stop until 3 weeks agao, now I just can't do anything. Even the smallest things around the house are too much. I'm a yogi and a fitness freak but I haven't done anything on my mat for months, other than lie down, and my workouts at the gym are pathetic because I have no energy. I am so NOT this person and I'm scared! Very scared.

I think probably some of what you are experiencing is the ability to finally "let down" from all the pressure and stress during your husband's illness.
I don't have time to write much, but I just wanted to say hi.
Pamela