help!

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Registered: 04-13-2003
help!
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Sat, 03-13-2004 - 10:36am
I'm scared. I started effexor last week and I'm not nearly as lethargic as I was on celexa, so that's really good. But I start doing things enthusiastically and then poof! All my energy vanishes, I get all cold, I feel sick and want to run home and hide. Every day I tell myself I will cook a healthy meal, eat more veggies and fruit - and then I can't face it and end up eating cereal again. I think I want to be able to relax, curl up in bed and have somebody take care of me for a change, but I also want to feel better and enjoy my life again. I desperately want to work but when I sit down at my pc a zillion things go through my head and fatigue hits again. I really really want to give in but I'm afraid of falling into the total blackness that some people experience. My doctor wants me to go away on a vacation fo a long time, and so do I, but I can't even make up my mind about this. A friend of mine is willing to come with me and it should be great, but I am just so scared of the financial repercussions because I'm not working. In the past three months I had been writing non-stop until 3 weeks agao, now I just can't do anything. Even the smallest things around the house are too much. I'm a yogi and a fitness freak but I haven't done anything on my mat for months, other than lie down, and my workouts at the gym are pathetic because I have no energy. I am so NOT this person and I'm scared! Very scared.
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Registered: 03-31-2003
In reply to: ijules1000
Sat, 03-13-2004 - 12:14pm
I'm glad you found this board. I know you'll find lots of support here from people who understand. I know finding what works for you to help your depression can be frustrating. I switched from Paxil to Wellbutrin to Zoloft. I had horrible side effects from the zoloft for about 2 weeks. The sad thing is I was in such a state at the time I would put up with any side effect it threw at me in hopes of ridding the anxiety/depression. I know depression can drain you but if you can do just a little excercise or yoga it might help. I do yoga and excercise daily myself. Somedays I can only handle 15 min of yoga instead of 30-45 min but I figure it's better then nothing. Somedays when I just can't fully get into my workout routine I just take a walk either on or treadmill or outside. I also understand the cereal issue. I could live on cereal myself (Lucky Charms-MMMMMM!) But notice I feel better mentally if I eat better. Somedays I really have to push the health food but it's worth it in the end when I feel more relaxed and I'm not as depressed. I also take vitamins, so if you're not doing that a multi-vitamin may be in order. HTH and keep posting to let us know how your doing~Jenn
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Registered: 01-26-2004
In reply to: ijules1000
Sat, 03-13-2004 - 12:45pm

I think probably some of what you are experiencing is the ability to finally "let down" from all the pressure and stress during your husband's illness.

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 07-15-2003
In reply to: ijules1000
Sat, 03-13-2004 - 5:51pm
Glad you found us!!

I don't have time to write much, but I just wanted to say hi.

Pamela

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