1year anniversary, loosing it, time warp
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1year anniversary, loosing it, time warp
| Mon, 03-15-2004 - 11:51am |
I can't believe it was a year ago I first starting writing on this board. You have all helped so much, now I need you again. My anxiety level is at an all time high. At lunch I had to go out and cried like a baby. It is like I time warped right back to that day, that horrible day Michael tried for the first time to kill himself. Last night I got an email from his ex-wife asking if I would be online any time soon to chat. She said Michael said something to her that she wanted to discuss with me. I emailed her back that only if it were not negative. I got off line and got very emotional, it surprised me because I was doing so well. Then this morning, at work, she sees I am online and instant messages me that it was one year ago. I told her of course I remembered, but it was actually the 16th (we went out the 15th and the night ran into the morning of the 16th) Anyway, I just needed to get all this off my chest and ask if this is normal, or am I really crazy and will never forget or stop feeling this horrible way I feel. I hate it, and I can't go on feeling this way. I do have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow night, so I know I can let go then. I am just so scared about instant messaging his ex. I feel bad for her though, she must also be suffering to email me a year later. Maybe we can help each other? Am I crazy?
Thanks for listening
Peg
Does it ever end?
Thanks for listening
Peg
Does it ever end?
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| Mon, 03-15-2004 - 12:04pm |
(((((((Peg))))))), what a dreadful time this is for you!

