My apology and need advice...

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My apology and need advice...
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Tue, 03-16-2004 - 12:15am
Hey Gang...

I know that I've been MIA, and that's mostly due to me sorting out a lot of feelings and emotions that are going on in my life. I've been at the lowest of lows recently, and it's getting a little bit better. I just apologize for any selfish behavior that I've displayed here. Seems as though the deeper I get, the more I push away and test. I feel bad, cause you all ahve really been here for me, and I abandoned you all. I apologize, and am sorry for my behavior.

I've been toying with the idea of going back to work on my Masters. In what is a better idea. I feel that my heart just isn't into teaching anymore. My mom gave me a lot of flack for it, because I had told her that I feel burnt out. She's like, you've only been doing it for 4 years, how can you be "burnt out?" It's true. My heart just isn't in it. I mean, I love the actual working with the kids part, but recently, i've been just pushed and pulled all around. I mean, 4 years, and I should be tenured this year. I'm not. I've worked for 4 different cooperatives, not by choice, but by force. I am so sick of dealing with the unorganization and eveyrthing that goes with it. I love helping my kids,and part of what I love is helping the deaf. I've really thougth about going into mental health counceling, or social work. Mostly because I want to understand myself a little more, and I want to help kids that have been abused, because I know exactly how they feel. I've heard horror stories about these fields, and wonder if it's worth the risk, but I'm wondering how much I have to lose? I've been toying with the idea of going back to school for a while, and maybe now is my chance?

Also, I'm going to see a therapist tomorrow for the first time in over a year and a half. So many issues to talk about, I don't even know what to start with. I'm just looking forward to getting it all out.

Thanks for listening. You are all fabulous!

Trix

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tue, 03-16-2004 - 7:56am
{{{Hugs}}}

I think you need to do what you feel is right. I have been taking some classes that I can put towards my Bachelor of Social Work. I really want to do that. I have heard that it can be pretty hard. But I think people with a little life experience can bring alot to it.

Take care

Pamela

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Tue, 03-16-2004 - 8:07am
Hi Trix. I dont come on this board all the time so I dont know exactly what behaviour you did to apologize for. Im sure you didnt do anything wrong. What does MIA stand for?

Anyways I think its good for you to follow your heart. Also follow your reason, but make a plan that suits your life better. Would it make sense for you to work a little longer and then return to school? Would it make more sense to leave right away?

4 years of teaching may not sound like a lot to many ppl but if you arent enjoying it then that is what matters, right?! Take care of yourself and I wish you all the best. Parents are often practical over other things so your mom may not understand. Please dont let that hold you back. HUGS
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 03-16-2004 - 9:16am



Trix,

Many many hugs to you sweetie dont be sorry for anything you need to do what is right for you right now and you need to take care of yourself that is what is important we will all be here when you need us.

I think that you should do what makes you happy what feels right for you after all you only get one chance in life it is not a dress rehersal so you might as well make the best of your life now take chances reach for the starts chase your dream.........what is that saying.....? I would rather regret the things I have done than the things I have not done...ya thats it.

Go back for your masters work with the deaf become a counsler do what you feel is right for you...

I'll be thinking of ya hun be happy...

Erin

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Tue, 03-16-2004 - 9:22am
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Tue, 03-16-2004 - 9:52am

Honey, I don't know what you think you did that you need to apologize for!

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 05-16-2003
Tue, 03-16-2004 - 10:05am
i just wanted to send you hugs. i wish i could help you sort this all out, all i can offer for advice is follow your heart. i totally believe that things happen for a reason. maybe you aren't meant for this type of teaching, maybe counseling the deaf? maybe helping deaf children who have been abused. listen to yourself and make yourself happy. best wishes. ~s

also, apologies necessary. we all understand. we are here if you need us.


Edited 3/16/2004 11:06 am ET ET by becomingme03

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Tue, 03-16-2004 - 10:13am

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Erin)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Sweetie,