thanks for the help

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Registered: 03-10-2004
thanks for the help
Wed, 03-17-2004 - 10:32am
I just want to say thank you to everyone who replied to my last post. Your advice was great! I talked to my therapist about the whole not feeling productive thing, and I really got the feeling that she has been holding back and waiting for me to take control of my own progress. So now we are working more on the things I want to work on.

My stepdaughter ran away last friday, and I was alone to deal with it. My husband could not come home to help. It was so hard to have her screaming at me and telling me that she won't live with us anymore. I felt abandoned because my hubby couldn't and wouldn't come home. I think I dealt with it well, but now I am feeling the effects. I was doing okay with things, and now I am back to crying and being so scared! I hate that I let her do this to me. I feel responsible to be the best parent I can, yet she and her sister throw all my caring right back in my face. I just want to give up.

It's so unfair that I try so hard and then something outside my control can set me back. I sometimes wish I could just be a hermit and not have to deal with anyone at all. everyone wants something, and noone wants to give back. Even my hubby told me yesterday that he is geting "stretched too thin" trying to do too much. I wanted to scream at him that I feel the same way. but he does not count fighting depression as "doing something". He does not count feeding and caring for three kids "doing something" He brings home the money, and that is his responsibility. I know he works hard, and I know he tries to help out around the house, but I feel like I do all the giving.

Thanks for listening to me rant a little, I guess I just woke up hurting and needed to let a little out.

Sara