Crying Sessions, Dark Hours? (triggers?)

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Crying Sessions, Dark Hours? (triggers?)
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Wed, 03-17-2004 - 8:16pm
Hi

I find myself tonight crying endlessly, thankfully I am not alone but I was wondering if anyone else here goes through this?

It's like you feel so much pain, so much sadness and its all dark and there isn't any light at all, all you can do mostly is cry and curl up like a baby and be held. It took me so long to be able to come here and type this. I guess I wanted to share my gloomy experience with someone in case it happens to you too.

Its so powerful this urge to cry and be held. It's like I'm so scared of my own thoughts, my own voice in my head.

I'm okay now though. Just sharing

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Wed, 03-17-2004 - 8:28pm

Yes, sweetie, I know what you are talking about.

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Thu, 03-18-2004 - 9:56pm
Thank you for your kind words:0)

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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 5:19am
Just wanted you to know that I do that too. Somedays I will lock myself in the bathroom for an all out cry. It used to scare me to do this but I started to realize that I would feel better after doing so. It was as though I released something that really needed to be released. Your not alone~(((HUGS)))~Jenn
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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 6:52am
Thank's Jenn for the hugs. ((((Jenn))))

I hope you have a good day!

:0)

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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 11:21am
Hey there, HUGS. That sounds similar to me when I was younger. I still have depression but not nearly as bad as I used to have it. To me I felt like I was in a "black hole", and it was the lowest depths of pain. That was how I felt. It was weird because I felt like I wanted the pain to stop, but I was also afraid of leaving the black hole. It was familiar, and even comfortable. However I was determined to get out and I did. Now the depression I feel seems to be reminents of my childhood that I have yet to sort through. I have come so far and so can you! Are you on anti-depressants? Im glad that you decided to come here and post. Please keep writing as it is a great stress reliever. :)
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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 11:34am

I've been through that several times in my life -- the endless crying.

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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 12:56pm
That's precisely how I spent last Saturday morning when Brandy was in the hospital for ingesting my meds. It's how I spent an entire weekend six years ago when my declawed cat was let out of the house by my ex and didn't come home. The intense sobbing and constant crying scared me the first time. I really was concerned for my mental health. But, I got over the grief, and got on with my life (as it was).

In my case, all the denial of the breast cancer, the divorce, the unahappiness at work topped by almost losing something else that I love was just too overwhelming for me to handle.

I think we've all gone through it at one time or another.

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Fri, 03-19-2004 - 2:04pm


Hello,

Okay I am going to sound kinda stupid right now but I do not really cry I mean Icry but not alot I always saw it as a sign of weakness for me thatis I do not see it that way for anyone else I feel that they are brave for letting it all out I am the type of person who holds it all in that way when I really want to beat myself up I have it stored inside of me and can just kinda go inside and use all of those things to make me feel worse, I am my own worse enemy you see I have a motto it goes like this there is nothing you can say or do to me that I already havent said or done to myself I can not be hurt because I hurt myself everyday I know I am sad maybe I do need to get it out and cry a good cry it is just hard for me.

Okay now that I have sat and talked about myself I am sorry for that by the way, I think that it is good that you can release those feelings and emotions I wish I could do that but do not let yourself slip so far into it that you cant get out..

I am glad that you posted here it is a great place to get what is on your mind out of it.

Hope we all have been of help and insight to you thus far.

Erin