Calling all amateur psychologists

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Registered: 01-12-2004
Calling all amateur psychologists
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Sat, 03-20-2004 - 1:08pm
I'm new here and just need some feedback on what I'm going through. I'm coming off of a recent divorce and a broken-down relationship on top of that. Needless to say, I've reached the end of myself. No suicidal thoughts or anything like that. I take Lexapro and I'm in counseling.

My problem is just apathy and detachment. About the only people I can really be emtionally involved with are my children. I'm funtioning a bit better on the medication, but there still feels like this deep inner emptiness. Sometimes I feel like a shell with not much inside. I don't know if I'm in the middle of burn out or what.

Anyone got any ideas?

Cheri

starthrower68@yahoo.com

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Sat, 03-20-2004 - 1:47pm

(((((Cheri))))), welcome!

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Sat, 03-20-2004 - 2:58pm

Welcome to our board, ((((((Cheri))))))!

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 01-12-2004
Sat, 03-20-2004 - 5:41pm
Thank you both for the kind words. I know the only thing I can do is to keep doing what I'm doing. I think I may have some bi-polar stuff going on, because I had set several goals for myself, was getting about and about with friends and the kids. Now I feel like I was masking something, sort of like trying to put fresh pain on rotten wood. This is the second week in a row I've missed Mass because all I want to do is come home and escape the rest of the world. It bothers me that I'm disconnecting somewhat from my closest friends, but I've really just turned inward. Even with them, I put on a brave front, refuse to talk about my ex-bf (my ex-husband and I have healed as friends but will never be together again)and I just internalize everything. I know there's some stuff going back to my childhood that has to be worked out, too. I feel right now like I've got just enough to give my kids, and when there with dad on Saturday nights, I withdraw. I go the only place I feel safe. I had a couple of days off this week because my oldest was sick. The first day, all I did was sleep. I didn't want to deal with anything. The second day was better and I actually got a little work done. I haven't had any time to decompress since this all went down. I have had to stay strong and continue fighting the good fight in spite of it because others are depending on me. Mentally and emotionally I am exhausted and I just want a break.

Cheri

starthrower68@yahoo.com