Goodbye......for now....
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| Tue, 03-23-2004 - 4:09pm |
Thank you,
I think that you all are a great bunch of women who has shown not only me but countless others such support and love a shoulder to cry on hand to hold laughs and tears triumps and step backs...
You all have given me so much support when I have needed it and words of advice when I could not find the words on my own, I am very lucky to have found a place like this a place that is safe for me to get it all out and I know that I can be a big baby at times and sometimes sound like a broken record but I feel at the times where I repeat myself well those are the times that the issue has not been resolved and I sometimes need to find that answer even though Iknow that I dont always have to know what the answer is.
I will be taking a break from the board for a little while I just dont have anything in me right now to give I have no words to support with no hugs to send at this point in my life I am not worth too much, things are so crazy for me and I am always so tired this week so far I have had little to no energy to go to work I still go but it takes alot out of me just to get here, and I have never had that probelm getting out of bed but I do and I work out and then I crawl under my covers and I do not move.
I will finish my move on saturday the 27th and I will be bringing my dog Lola to my friends fathers house to live and I will cry and miss her and I hate myself for doing this to her but I just cant take her with me I love her so much she kept me alive when I wanted to kill myself and this is how I pay her back I am a monster.
I will probably lurk read some posts try to help but for now I need to say goodby, I love you all very much.
Keep helping one another laugh smile share be there for each other caly I wanted to tell you that I wish I had as much courage as you have you are a great influence on me and trac the same goes for you your strength is unmatched and barb, you are always there for each and everyone of us you know us all so personally and you are so personal with your responce to each of us you are like a mom figure to me all three of you ladies are awesome we would not be the family we are at this board if it wasnt for you three ladies.
Thanks again.
Erin

((((((((Honey)))))))), this is a tremendously challenging time for you -- physically, mentally, and emotionally.
please don't leave forever. i feel like a terrible friend if i haven't been able to make you feel better when you are sad. i know how you feel about your dog, i felt the same way about mine and i had to leave him with my parents. if you ever need anything, PLEASE ask. i will miss you if you aren't here. please keep in touch, and come back as soon as you can. i think this move will be great for you. let us all know how you are doing away from your sister and luis (a.k.a the terrible two as far as roomates go) :) hope you are smiling and feeling better soon!
love ya girl!
((((((((((((((((Erin)))))))))))))))My friend!
And you will always be MY FRIEND!
Change is always hard whether its by choice or whether it comes into our lives unasked for.
*hugs
I wish you didn't feel you have to leave the board! You have to do what it takes to make you happy, but I will miss seeing your little shamrock all the time. You have been a great supporter of all of us and I hope you feel up to coming back to us soon. I will keep you in my thoughts. I want to let you know that if you ever need us, we are here. You sound like you are having a tough time right now, and I worry that you are leaving right when we could have the opportunity to help you. But you need to make your own decisions.
Love and Hugs
Sara