feel like I am crazy

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Registered: 03-23-2004
feel like I am crazy
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Tue, 03-23-2004 - 8:05pm
I have been going through some periods of ups and downs and lots of anxiety and I feel like my mind won't rest. I was diagnosed with Bi-polar when I was in middle school. I am now an adult and over the past years I have been dealing pretty good with my depression. But lately it seems to be coming back more often, like its in cycles. Like today, I had to take half a day because I could not make it through; I was crying and I was extremely tired. So I went home and relaxed and took care of myself. This also happened in January of this year. I have been taking my medication like I am supposed too, but I sometimes wonder does it really help? I also have been having thoughts that maybe I could get in a car accident and maybe that would take away some of my pain from my depression! Don't get me wrong I DON'T want to kill myself!

I came from a family that has a long history of mental illness and alcoholism, my dad also suffers from Bipolar, however he was not diagnosed til he was in his 40's and my mom suffers from periods of depression. I just wish sometimes that I could get a break from it all. I stopped going to my psychologist because I felt I was doing ok, but now I think that I should go back, so I can have some one to talk to. I just need support right now and any suggestions that would help me.

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Tue, 03-23-2004 - 9:37pm

Hi, (((((((Redhead197924)))))))!

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 03-23-2004 - 10:05pm

HI Redhead!


Welcome to the board!

*hugs             

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Registered: 03-23-2004
Wed, 03-24-2004 - 6:53pm
Thank you so much. I have already made an appointment with a therapist, however its not the one I would normally go to. My insurance is no longer accepted at my old therapist, so in the mean time I am using my Employee Assistants Program thru work. I have an appointment next Tuesday. Hopefully she could refer me to somebody who is in my network. I also have support with my family, especially my mom and sister. But sometimes I just feel really alone, like right now!

I actually went to work today, but it was really hard, I just kept trying to stay busy! But now I am really, really tired. Well, I am a fighter so, tomorrow is another day to battle.

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Registered: 03-23-2004
Wed, 03-24-2004 - 6:56pm
Thank you so much. I have already made an appointment with a therapist through my Employee Assistants Program at work, because my old therapist no longer accepts my insurance. My appointment is next Tuesday. I also have support thru my Mom and Sister. But sometimes I just feel really alone, like now!

Well, I am a fighter and tomorrow is another day to battle.

Thanks again

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Thu, 03-25-2004 - 12:48am

That's great!

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 03-25-2004 - 2:04pm

Hi...You are a picture of me.

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Registered: 03-23-2004
Thu, 03-25-2004 - 4:40pm
I am sleeping ok, but I still don't feel very rested. I recently started a new position at work, but I really don't think that's what is stressing me out. I think the only thing that might be bothering me is, I recently bought a new car and I have never had a car payment before and also my insurance went up. Another possible thing that might be bothering me is, I lost my virginty this past July, and I thought that maybe the guy was the one I was going to date for awhile, but that has not happend he lives in AZ and is in the border patrol, he recently got out of the Marines. And I think I let myself fall in love with him. I have told my self that I will never forget him, because he was the man I lost it to, but I just wanted more. And I was very, very careful!! He was something that I wanted but could not have. I am hanging in there and trying to move on. If you have any suggestions please let me know.