dr. appt went bad.....poss trigg

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Registered: 03-10-2004
dr. appt went bad.....poss trigg
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Tue, 03-23-2004 - 10:59pm
Well, ladies, thank you for the great words of support and understanding. I made it through the appt. just fine. This doctor is really nice and I really felt like he listened to what I had to say. I have never had a doctor do that before, and it was so refreshing. It looks like it was a good time to find an understanding doctor, too. They found pre-cancer tissue growth in my cervix. This is the 3rd time. So they took a biopsy and ran a whole lot of blood tests. I will know for sure in about two weeks what I am looking at.

I told my husband, and he freaked. His mother had a scary bout with cervical cancer and had to have a hysterectomy because of it. I feel so bad for worrying him. I should have waited till I knew if we were looking at benign or malignant, or if anything is really wrong at all. But now I am scared. I know I don't take very good care of myself, but this is not a price I want to pay. I have a beautiful five year old girl. I am trying to tell myself that I really don't know if anything is wrong, but I am getting more and more scared. I am only in my mid-twenties!

I know we had not planned on having more children, but now I worry about not being ABLE to have any. I know that's jumping the gun, and I know that I really shouldn't borrow worries, but so many things are running through my head. I don't want to tell anyone else until I know for sure what's going on, but I really needed someone to talk to about this that I can be scared to. I feel like I have to be reassuring to my hubby, so I can't break in front of him.

Thanks for listening

sara

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Tue, 03-23-2004 - 11:52pm
Hi sara, HUGS and Im sorry to hear about it. I really really hope that it is totally benign and that you will be ok. Please dont feel guilty at all about telling your husband. You are there to support each other. You are the person who had to be tested, so please allow your husband to help you deal with it. He is your partner, and it seems like he loves you very much. Im sure he would have wanted to know about what the doctor said. I know it is hard to do, but try to imagine physically taking your worries and throwing them out. Actually you can even take something and throw it out for real, like you could draw on an orange and write "worries" on it and throw it really really far away and hear it squish and it is gone! I know this wont take it away but I think it can be a good stress releiver. All the best to you and take care :)