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| Tue, 03-23-2004 - 11:33pm |
Hello friends! I know it has been a long while since i have posted- mainly because of my literally none-stop work days, and part of me thinks that another reason is that i have been trying REEEEAAALY hard NOT thinking about my depression and how horrible and lost i feel inside all day. I thought that being that i have tried "therapy", various meds, and practically every other possible way to rid myself of this illness in the past- maybe i should do the only other thing that i hadn't tried to do....go to work, school and just try to live my life without thinking about this illness. But friends, i think that something is very very wrong. I feel even MORE numb to everything, and everybody around me. I feel as though people who see me everyday (mainly my boss cause i work ten hour shifts)can see that there is something wrong and think that i'm "weird" or who knows what else. I can even sense that my boss just doesn't confide in me as much and keeps repeating things that need to get done or keeps reminding me....now don't get me wrong it's a good thing that my boss actually repeats things in a step by step "how to" manner, but i feel that she does it to an extreme with me Lately. Ladies, i'm scared deep down inside because i have no clue what is going on with me. For the past week i have lost my appetite and i can barely hold any food in..this is recent- maybe it's just a cold, but i just don't know...i can't afford to see a doctor either so things are really not looking so great for me lately. I'm sooo truely lost.. Any advise would be deeply appreciated! Thanks in advance, and PLEASE take good care of yourselves!

The boss thing, well I wish I had good advice. I think the only thing I would do is just try to get back in touch with what I need for myself and then it will shine through at work. I think ppl can pick up on those vibes.
I wish you all the best and take care. By the way thanks for the kind thoughts :)
Even if my suggestions don't work for you, I hope something does. I will be thinking of you and sending hugs
Sara