hi guys...

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Registered: 02-05-2003
hi guys...
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Wed, 03-24-2004 - 9:13pm
I know I haven't been here in a while, but life has thrown me for a looper. A few times. First, I started therapy last week. I feel better, however I feel like I'm getting way more depressed than it's helping. I know that therapy is good, it's just getting past the first part that is hard. Second, me being clumbsy, I slipped and fell, and sprianed my foot. yes, my foot...don't ask me how. I was totally walking in one of my schools, and wasn't paying attention and TOTALLY wiped out. Was there ice? nope, it happend inside. Was there water on the floor!? Nope. I'm just naturally clumbsy. Figures. So, that's really got me down. Why, I'm not sure. Things at home really aren't that great with my dad being a jerk, and telling my mom that he wants a "quickie divorce" and "regrets having the kids." Don't get me wrong, but usually it's in one ear, and out the other. Everything has been bothering me lately. I'm so sensitive. I hate it. On top of it all, tonight Randall, the boyfriend, told me that he felt "distant" from me, and that he gets frustrated that we don't spend time together. Even though he's been studying. On top of it all, he starts his rotation on Monday. So he told me that we wouldn't be seeing each other that often, and that "we'll see what happens." To me that sounds like breaking up. I can't stand feeling this way anymore. I feel that I have one rejection after another. I also found out today that I was laid off from my job, with only 5 others, even though they said there would be a lot more than 5. Figures that I would be the one that gets cut. I'm so tired of coming in last place all the time. What did I do to deserve all this? I'm so tired of it all. I can't take crying anymore. Thanks for listening.

Trix

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Registered: 03-23-2004
In reply to: vwtrixie
Wed, 03-24-2004 - 11:40pm
Ya know what, Trixie? You totally remind me of my sister, Nicole. Just the words you use, and even being clumsy. There is this one song, I don't know who sings it, it's a song from the early 90's, I think it's called "Everybody". Anyway, Nicole says that is her theme song for life because like very so often in the song, the guy in the background says "Ow!". Anyway.... I just wanted to say that there is nothing wrong with being sensitive! If it weren't for sensitive people... this board would not exsist! So, thank God for sensitive people! As far as the whole boyfriend situation, I know that matters of the heart can break you the fastest. Just because he said "We'll see what happens" doesn't mean he's breaking up with you! I think it is a good sign that he feels frustrated when you two don't spend time together... that is a signal that he WANTS to spend time with you! I wouldn't think that would lead to a break up. I know what it feels like to be rejected, too. Let these situations make you stronger. (Easier said than done, OK.) I believe that everything happens for a reason and the bible says that God will never give you more than you can bear, so when times get really rough, I remind myself of that passage in scripture, and with the recent events in my life, God must think I am an awfully strong person, so obviously he thinks you are, too!
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Registered: 01-26-2004
In reply to: vwtrixie
Wed, 03-24-2004 - 11:56pm

Hello there, (((((((Honey)))))))!

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 04-07-2003
In reply to: vwtrixie
Thu, 03-25-2004 - 10:55am

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Erin))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Hugs to you, aw sweetie, what a couple of months you have had.

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Registered: 02-07-2004
In reply to: vwtrixie
Thu, 03-25-2004 - 5:15pm
I agree with everyone else here...hang in there!