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More confusion?
| Wed, 03-24-2004 - 9:49pm |
Well in the past two days since I posted my e-spouse and I have talked more. We decided the first and most important thing to do was to get me into therapy. I have ben depressed for many years. I finally said ok and he said that he wouldmake the call and be with me every step of the way.Secondly we decided that we would take one day at a time and work on us slowly. As soon as we decided to do this he started telling me all about this women that he is seeing and that he really liked her and that they are just friends (hum?).He alsosaid that he did not know if he had a furture with her or if hewanted one (hum?). Anyway when he was talking about her I was so hurt. I started to cry and slipped fast into depression. Then he had the nerve to get upset with me because I now refused to get the help I need so badly. I just can't and won't do it now! No way! Today he tried to convince me to get help again and while he was doing that he was talking on and on about this women. He was mad at himself because he said that he threw a monkey wrench into this and now I won't get help. He also said he should of waited till I was in thearpy to tell me all about her. What the heck is he doing to my emotions? I am not strong. I'm ready to break. He knows that. I feel that he is playing a game with my heart. If he wants to be with this women...then so be it. He's only been with this women for two months. Well to top things off hestill wants me to go for help and work on us but...now here's the but part. While I am in thearpy he is still going to see this women and work on us. I don't think so! I may be depressed but I'm not stupid! I told him if you want to work on us I'm not going to sit home every night still depressed until I am completly better while you are with another women. That will depress me more. I also said I'll be alone while you are getting closer to someone else. Some thing is wrong with this picture. He still insists that I get help and see where we go from there. I think this is a big con. It's not nice to play with a depressed person heart and emotions. That could be dangerous.I am so sad right now.

((((((Paws)))))), we talked the other day in chat.