Oh my Gosh, no way! Here is what I think. These past two weeks have absolutely been the worst in my entire life. I cannot honestly say that I love myself right now. But, I bear in mind that there is one powerful, loving, and beyond smart creator who created me. He made you, too... and he never makes mistakes, he knows things about us that we do not know about ourselves. I don't know what your thoughts or feelings are on God at all, but I wanted to share mine with you, and I hope you will dwell on it for a moment. Also, you said in your post... "My ex-DH used to say that my size cancels everything else about me." I know what it feels like to not be happy about your size, I myself have gained sixty pounds between the births of my two girls, and I do not like that about myself. But let me say this, a quality person is looking for what is on the inside, not what appears on the outside to determine the love they feel for someone. I cannot name anyone whose appearance has never changed. If someone determines love based on the way someone looks, it will change. Your post also said that you feel like everyone is keeping you at arm's length, and you crave love and closeness. I can identify with that feeling, too. I don't have all the answers, but I sure know how you feel, so even if all this typing has done nothing helpful, I just want you to know that I feel the same way, you are not alone.
I used to think I was worth nothing because I had always been told that. But I look at all I have accomplished, and although it may not be much compared to some people, I think I have done pretty good.
Don't measure yourself up to anyone girl!! You are a fantastic person and for some reason crappy things happen to good people.
((((Lady))))
This IS a bad time for you, there is no denying it, but it WILL get better!!!
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I used to think I was worth nothing because I had always been told that. But I look at all I have accomplished, and although it may not be much compared to some people, I think I have done pretty good.
Don't measure yourself up to anyone girl!! You are a fantastic person and for some reason crappy things happen to good people.
Pamela