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| Mon, 03-29-2004 - 1:33pm |
Hello all,
Well I moved out of my sisters house this weekend and into my moms so far it has been okay but it has been only 2 days so we shall see how it all goes.....
My friends dad took Lola (my dog) on Saturday night she went right to him and kept giving him kisses but I know that she is a little mad at me wondering why I am not with her I miss her so much but I know that she will be taken very good care of.
I am also very excited because I ordered a new work out to do it is a balance ball that way I can work on my total body and abs a bit more make them stronger so I am siked to get that in the mail and actually use it I know sounds dumb but I love getting new work outs and new equiptment to use.
My therapist said to me last week "what are you going to do now that you are moving out of your sisters and there wont be any caos around you "? good question since I thrive on caos life doesnt seem right if I do not have drama little waves in my pond I get anxious with outcaos so I guess I am going to have to learn to live normal I guess fidn ways to enjoy my life which seems pretty hard but one day I will get there.
I am feeling pretty okay the boys at work are scared because I am in a good mood today and they are not used to it so I guess thats a good thing Right?????
I am just a little bummed out I am getting really sick of being single I hate it and it just makes me feel even more crappy about being me I met one guy shannon and he turned out to be a little off I guess you could say he was mentally alot younger than his actual age, then Jon (I am sure some of you remmeber him the one who owns the club and cant get it up) he called me on friday but I didnt answer the phone didnt leave a message so I didnt call him back..but why do these people have to call you just when you are feeling worse about yourself do they know that you are feeling so aweful and have to call to remind you that you are only good enough to have as a booty call and nothing more...I am going to sound really dumb but sometimes I wish I didnt have emotions that way it would not hurt I seem to feel hurt alot more than others do and it drives me nuts.
But anyways so far things are okay except for me being me, trying to figure out if and when my sister and I will talk again...I need to start to plan a trip to Arizona to see my baby boy and I need to plan when I can go and see Lola I miss her so much.
I hope everyone has a good day and I hope everyone had a great weekend.
Erin

Erin,
Good luck with your new exercise video, I wish I had that passion for exercise. I hope things will be better for you now at your mom's. Maybe the lack of chaos will help you to not feel so bad. I totally understand the hating being single. I'm sure that there is someone totally great out there just waiting for you. Yes, I am a hopeless romantic. I truly believe that there is someone for everyone and you will meet that person when the time is right. Well, that is my lame attempt at comfort.....I hope it helps a little