question??? about chaos..

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Registered: 11-18-2003
question??? about chaos..
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Mon, 03-29-2004 - 4:47pm
Quick question I hope that someone can help me..

I am one of those people that needs chaos in life if things are too quiet I get worried really worried to the point that I freak out I have to have somethng going on in order for me to feel normal I thrive I guess you could say on chaos not that I function any better under it but my life seems more complete the worse it gets does that make sense and I just wanted to see if anyone else could relate or knows what I am talking about.

Thanks,

Erin

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Registered: 03-26-2004
Mon, 03-29-2004 - 6:30pm
I know exactly what you mean. My mother was like that when I was growing up and I learned the same behavior. If things are going good in my life I look for things to "improve" but I was actually doing was looking for some problem to deal with, if I couldn't find one then I would cause my own problems. I took me a long time to realize that but now that I have I am able to stop myself before I create a huge drama. I;m not always to prevent it but I am a lot better than I used to be. It made me feel like I had more control over my life once I realized what I was doing to myself. Now if I can get a handle on my depression and my negative thought process then I will be doing alright!
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Registered: 01-26-2004
Mon, 03-29-2004 - 10:14pm
I think what you are referring to is what some people call "addiction to excitement".





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