This May be Longgggggg

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Registered: 03-28-2003
This May be Longgggggg
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Wed, 03-31-2004 - 9:22pm
I am feeling very overwhelmed and I have no support from my husband. I just don't know why I keep trying. I saw my therapist today (the one I'm leaving). I didn't know how to tell him, so I told him all the stuff going on and cried and cried and cried. He said he is always amazed by how much I do because he knows how terrible I feel. On the other hand, I have my husband---who can only find and talk about the negative. Anyway---I told my therapist that I just felt I wasn't getting anywhere and that I thought it was time for me to leave. He said maybe I should just take a break. I kept trying to tell him that I was leaving for good----but I didn't want to hurt his feelings. I also didn't want to tell him I already have an appointment with another therapist. I cried all the way home.



Once home, I tried to tell my DH, and his reply was "I always thought the guy was a quack"

Then I started looking for pictures and bios from my competition winners (I run a young artist competition for the orchestra) They are no where to be found! Of course, I'm upset about this, but when I was trying to tell DH what I was looking for, he said if the sunroom wasn't such a mess I could find things in there.

Is it too much to ask for just a little understanding?

So, I've called all my winners and they will e-mail me bios and mail pictures. I wanted to e-mail them all tho just to make sure they had my address and e-mail right----but Hotmail is down and such a little thing is making me cry again.



I have papers to grade and lesson plans to do and I need to get a resume done to send to the school I interivewed at on Monday. Tomorrow I am taking the 2nd graders to sing at a festival and I need to get some notes together for my sub.

I think it would be easier to just go to bed and never wake up.

My DH is yelling at the cat about something and I'm not getting any papers graded by whining on the computer---so I'll go. Debbie

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Wed, 03-31-2004 - 9:45pm
Debbie, you do get an amazing amount done, especially feeling the way that you do, regardless of what your husband says. I'm sorry you're feeling so down...I think you are brave for taking the step of trying to tell your therapist you are leaving...you need to do what will be best for you.

I wish you did have more understanding from your husband and also from your current therapist...depression is hard enough to deal with, without the added difficulty of an unsupportive spouse. I know how you feel about thinking it would be easier just to go to bed forever...I've been having similar feelings myself lately.

But I hope you will be able to find a little spark of hope in each day...and that you will keep posting here for support and to let us know how you're doing...I do think about you, even though I have been remiss in posting lately...

Sleep well,

Rose

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Thu, 04-01-2004 - 8:40am
{{{Debbie}}}

That must have been hard to tell your therapist that you weren't continuing on with him. And then for him to skirt around the issue...

I hope things look up for you soon sweetie.

Thinking of you and holding you close in my heart.

Pamela

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