not doing well at all......

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Registered: 03-10-2004
not doing well at all......
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Sun, 04-11-2004 - 11:56pm
I am having such a tough day. I haven't been able to sleep the last few days....meds get me to sleep, but don't keep me in dreamland. So I wake up aprox 6 hrs after I take them, wide awake, unable to get back to sleep. I hate it. I am so rundown.

So then for Easter I had to go see the family. My family was pared down to the members I like, so while that was exhausting with all the talking and commotion, it didn't bother me too bad. But then we had to go to the in-laws. My sis in-law is a total nightmare. She puts down everything about me while somehow managing to be everything I really don't want to be. I have no respect for her, and I suppose it's mutual. It is very hard to be in the same room with her for any length of time. Just seeing her puts my teeth on edge. It's not so bad if I don't have to look at her or talk to her, but when we are stuck in a small house together, that is just about impossible.

Taking all three kids to two dinners gets them tired and cranky, and I have no patience at all with it. Then I get tired and cranky. Then my hubby gets cranky, and before you know it we are all snipping and grumping at each other. I just want to run away or hide in my room. I really get so down about it. All I keep thinking is my weekend is over and I don't know if I can make it through the day tomorrow. I just want to go to sleep for a week or so. I know I can't, and that makes me feel even more cruddy. I can't even seem to relax enough to go to sleep because of this icky feeling that is crawling around inside of me.

I know that being tired can set this off for me, and I really try to avoid late nights. Once I start, I have so much trouble getting back into the routine. I feel like I am in a tailspin. I can't seem to break it. Here I am, I should be sleeping, and I am so worked up I can't even go lay down.

Sorry this is so long, I guess I really needed to vent

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-07-2004
Mon, 04-12-2004 - 1:09am
VENT! PLEASE! Anyone would be stressed out after a day like that! And what else you're going thru certainly doesn't help. I would hate to have that sort of sleep schedule--I went thru a period of sleeping no more than 3 hrs for over 2 wks--lots of nightmares and troubled dreams. It made me near brain dead--plus I was working 2 jobs at the time. Any way to get something that lets you sleep? Does your husband offer any support? Does he help with the kids when he knows you're having a rough time? Can you take tomorrow off and just recoup? Good luck.

BYW--I like your choice in books and music!

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Mon, 04-12-2004 - 6:46am

Vent away hun!

*hugs