yesterday was hard

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2004
yesterday was hard
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Mon, 04-19-2004 - 12:08pm
Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I didn't even get off the couch. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have been with my fiancee for a year and a half and we are engaged. I don't have that many friends and the friends I do have are causing "all" the problems in our relationship-according to my fiancee. I feel lost and hurt because I cannot have a normal healthy life no matter what I do. I can't have friends, I can't hang out and do normal things that normal people do. He has been abusive in the past, physically and emotionally. I know I need to leave because it will only get worse. I am having a hard time trying to understand why I am always the cause or am told I am the cause. I know I am not the cause, but all of my previous relationships were blamed on me and my friend. When we get to hang out, we ride our horses, listen to music, shop, watch movies, trade clothes etc. Is that normal? I think it is but why is it always such a problem? I feel like crawling in a hole and never coming out. I have no energy, I don't care what I look like, I basically am just existing.
iVillage Member
Registered: 04-07-2003
Mon, 04-19-2004 - 12:58pm

Sweetie,


My past experience has lead to the thought that if someone else were telling you your story, how would you respond them.